My nights are lonely. When I get off work there isn’t a warm message, just social media updates. I’ve broken down several times in public but I’ve maintained my composure and kept walking. I feel like the world is on top of me.
No ones words have comforted me, I still go off into deep thoughts about our happy days and our sad ones. At work I had to run to the bathroom because my eyes were getting really wet, i almost burst out crying singing “the only exceptions”. I tired my best to cover the pain with a little smile and laugh. I even tried to make other people laugh, but at the end of my work day I sit alone and ponder my thoughts.
I have spent the day thinking about how bad I want her back but then it hits me, she doesn’t want me. It does nothing but bring tears to my eyes. Listening to myself sob is terrible.