I wish

I wish I can love. I wish someone will love me.

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Close your eyes and imagine a world where emotion didn’t exist. Close your eyes and imagine a world where pain never occurred. It’s crazy right?

Pt 1

Why do I do this to myself?

I’m under so much emotional stress that it’s rediculous. I’m just a sack of jealous ball sack with a cigarette hanging out of his mouth. All I really want is love. I just want to feel it, I want to cherish it. I want something that I know feels right but my shyness and silence keep me from breaking through.

I’m like shit, I think I fucked it up. I can see it in her demeanor. Maybe it’s me? Maybe I don’t show enough or maybe she’s moved on. I can’t keep living life as if shits going to get handed to me. I’m tired of running and talking myself in circles just to get myself to shut up.

I feel so lonely it’s exhausting. I just don’t understand how people just move from one another, I just don’t get it. I don’t feel right even being this person anymore but I have to do it. I have to live out what’s been bestowed in front of me in order to succeed. But my problem is how do I do that? I’ve been given no tools to help either.

fuck everything

Fuck everything
Fuck all that I have brought to myself
Fuck everything
Fuck all of the problems I create to detest myself
Fuck everything
Fuck the purpose of this note that I’m making
Fuck everything
Fuck the the science behind this madness I’m the saddest
Fuck everything
Fuck the people who deem me as a push over
Fuck everything
Fuck my silence because it’s what’s kept me quiet when the lady is over
Fuck everything
Fuck the faces that I see that care not to look at me
Fuck everything
I’ve dreamt of death but scared to face it but ask for ends when the begining is basic
Fuck everything
Fuck the fact that I can’t do right when in plain sight
Fuck everything
Fuck the fact that I cant speak my mind and start a conversion with a beautiful woman in mind
Fuck everything
Fuck these emotions although it’s guidence pleading to riot
Fucking everything
Fuck my life I said it right but no I shall stay strong and win the fight

FUCK EVERYTHING