November 8th

For everyone we all have that one day in the year where we gather friends and family and celebrate the day we were born. Its just another part of life that we have accepted and cherish as we grow old and wither away. Every year when the month of November rolls around I feel the hype settle in and my nerves start to rattle. I’m going to be another year older and another year of not getting shit done. Yeah  I know that sounds bad but really, earlier tonight I had what I call an “Early Life Crisis.” Does is sound stupid? Yes. Am I being serious about all of this? Yes. So what is this young afrocentric black kid rambling on about?

Dreams…

Remember when you were younger sitting back in your room or watching TV…or whatever the hell it was that you did when you were a kid, you would think about the future? I know I did a whole lot. I remember a specific time back in elementary school when I was on the bus thinking about what the future may hold for me. Just like an ordinary brain washed American, I figured I would graduate from high school, go to college, get a degree in whatever, and then get a good job and be out the house by the age of 23. Fast forward to today and here I am with no car, a low paying job, and living in my parents house getting yelled at for eating the last hot pocket. The life I live now isn’t what I envisioned years ago. Hell, I didn’t even think I would be a skateboarder or a writer for a tech website.

As these days go on, I start to think more and more about what I really want to do in life. Right now, everything seems to be at a halt due to my father trying to drag me into running his business and me grudgingly trying to skate away. I’ve really been thrown right in-between a rock and a hard place and its kinda’ hard to get out. I have dreams of becoming a professional skateboarder and traveling the world. I also have other dreams of becoming a computer programmer, famous blogger, and owner of one of the worlds most popular social networking websites. I WANT TO BE THE BLACK STEVE JOBS. The problem is, I got a lot on my plate. I mean look back at the list I just wrote and tell me each task isn’t difficult to achieve. I know I can do it but theres this thing called “lack of Motivation” that seeps in. Now for skateboarding, my lack of motivation never touches it, I forever carry the love of skating with me and day dream about it (like right now). But then there are my other goals like learning to program and being a famous writer. Those types of goals I need to go to school for, or at least find some type of schooling that dodges the whole concept of having to take general education classes. Ya’ know, something like hacker school in NY.

In the end after analyzing everything I go into this depressed mode and start crying (not really), but I have actually broke down before in my bathroom thinking about life. Life in general is such a tricky dilemma, and I say dilemma because we have to do so much to sustain a healthy body and then turn around and do work using either our brains or physical labor. It sometimes leads me to question why people don’t ever want to die and live forever on earth. Sounds a bit silly to me (and no that wasn’t a suicidal thought).

To be honest about everything, I don’t think I planned out life properly. Its either that or I am really just too mellow and have no care in trying to prosper in this world that I have taken the role of that guy who lives with is parents his whole life chasing a dream that he’ll never catch. But thats not what I believe in because the dreams and ambitions that I have in life will eventually come to fruition. As usual I’m just overthinking life and not focusing on the hard work that I need to commit to so I can become the mere thoughts I have of myself.

So as I usually say…maybe One Day.

ps. Another note, I’m 21 guys. It feels a tad bit weird being able to walk inside of a bar with a bunch of older people drinking beer and playing pool, but I got the rest of my life of having this sort of freedom bestowed upon me. In some sense its cool but in other case’s is like, “I’ve waited 21 years just to do this?” lol But you know man, thats life and I’ve been kick pushing through a majority of it. Guess I’ll keep on kicking.

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Happy New Years!

I personally think that this year is going to be a great year! They say that life is what you make it so this year I’m going to lay my foot down and pave my path out myself instead of someone else doing it for me. Last year had its ups and downs but this  year looks bright for me and my friends. We’re all getting paid, we all have good goals and right now we are all achieving them. It feels great knowing that you’re whole crew is doing well. We may not have stepped into the new year with a huge bang but we don’t need no overwhelming party to make the next 365 days memorable ones. My head is still foggy from earlier so I’ll make a much more clearer post about this new start of life here on earth later today if I remember to do so. haha!

Have fun everyone and make this your year as well!

Peace. Love. Skate (PLS)

Heart. Honor. Respect (HiiiPower)

New PARAMORE VIDEO!

So last night at 12 midnight Paramores new music video monster was supposed to be shown on MTV’s website. So as a big fan of there music that I am, I stayed up till 12 to watch the video. Wanna know what happened? “Sorry, we cannot retrieve this video”. That pissed me off! I was up till 12:45 tweeting with all the rest of the parawhores while trying to get the video to play. I man dang, my heart was racing and stuff then I go to watch the video and now it won’t let me see it? It was some night. I decided to go to bed and watch it in the morning, surprisingly it worked. Not to say I didn’t think it would….I just kinda thought that MTV was gonna screw around with us some more. I mean I would, if I was working there and saw all of them tweets and hate messages coming at them, I woulda kept them waiting. haha! I’m just playing…

So here is the video if you haven’t seen it. Don’t worry, it’ll play. If not then youtube can eat one.

Its a pretty neat video, very confusing but for the most part for off the CHAIN!!!! PARAMORE ALL DAY!

I Got A Job

So I didn’t really think I was going to get it but I did. For 2 weeks now I’ve been working at UPS unloading trucks, which they call feeder. I don’t know why they call them feeders and why they don’t simply just say trailers but thats what I do. I had to go through so much crap though. I’d go into detail but its a bunch of bull, I’ll just start with orientation.

So first 2 days I had to sit in a class room and listen to a bunch of people talk. The first day I think 3 or maybe 4 people came in and starting talking about UPS and a whole lot of other crap that really didn’t interest me. I was mostly looking forward to working. The second day some hazmat guy cam in and talked to us and once again it was about stuff I really didn’t care for. I did pass my test with 100%. The end….

The week after I sat in a class room at the actual hub where this black guy named Ray Love talked to us some more about UPS and our jobs. Every day we would go out to where we were going to work and spend a few hours lifting boxes. Then come back and listen to Ray talk. Everyone goes by a first name basis thats why I keep saying Ray instead of Mr. Love. Ray was a odd fellow. He would have his white and black moments. haha

Last week I started working in my designated building. I had a quality trainer who would get on me for every little mistake I would make. She’s pretty cool, she raps. I heard her album and was like “EEE! This is dope” But after 4 days of dealing with her, on that Friday I got to work by myself. It was pretty simple and mello. I was in a truck by myself lifting boxes, what fun.

Now that its a new week I have been working by myself and liking the job a little. the people are nice and might I add, theres a few hot chicks yahmean? haha.

I’m not saying its fun but ehh, I’m getting paid and work for 4 hours. Some days I’ll work 2 hours. But hey! I got a job!

Oh if you wanna hear my Quality Trainers Album go to this link! => http://www.datpiff.com/Mary-Jayne-800-An-Ounce-mixtape.241480.html

Red Bull Manny Mania

So just yesterday on May the 14th, I competed in the Red Bull Manny Mania, which is a skateboarding contest that is held every year is different cities. This was my first ever contest that I have entered and I was super nervous. Just to give you a little description of what the contest is about, it is a contest where you have to do manuels during the whole time you are skating. I would go into some detail on how the contest works but I’ll just leave you with a video to find out for yourself.

Anyways I was super stoked that I got to enter, although I had to wait on my father to come up there and help sign me up since I was under the age of 18, but the feeling I got  sitting there waiting for my round or what they called “heat” to come up was nerve racking. I was in the last heat and I had enough time to practice in between heats. When it came up for my heat to go I went for it, I threw down every trick that came to my head. That hard part was trying to think of what trick to do after you landed one. To add to all of that we only had 8 minutes. So in those 6 minutes I was sweating hard, breathing hard and thinking my hardest. I land some pretty good tricks and got a lot of props from the crowd cheering me on and stuff. But sadly, I didn’t make it to the final round.

It was a pretty good experience, I just can’t wait for next year so I can compete again.

I leave you with this video of the Red Bull Manny Mania 2010 World Finals 2010. Its the same kind of skating I went through just with the world finalist.

1.11.11

Look at the title, then look at your calender, then your phone. Then anything else with the numbers, 1.11.11. Thats a nice date right? RIGHT! All through out 2011 there will be a bunch of 1’s going on. Well at least I think so. I think there may be like 1 or 2 1’s going on but that will be about it. So have an nice 1.11.11 and for people who missed this day, it wasn’t much of nothing. Just a day with a bunch of ones in the date. PEACE!

First Week Of School

So on Tuesday the 17th was the first day of school in Jefferson county. We came back to the same thing thinking it was going to be a little different from last year. At least it felt the same to me. The first day went well, exploding monster cans and finally getting to talk to some of my friends that I haven’t seen all summer. The first week went by smooth and without any troubles for real. At least  not any major troubles. Its only the beginning, lets see what Southern High has in store for us.