Growing older is such a weird thing. I sometimes think back to when I was in Middle school and how simple life was. Now I’m 24 with a job and a rap career that I’m trying to take to new heights and it all doesn’t seem real.
I know for sure a lot of us walk around questioning the purpose of life. Although I don’t have the answer to it, my solution is this.
Let’s all show love and compassion towards one another.
I really didn’t like writing that.
I swear I didn’t.
It’s too cliche and states the obvious here on earth, we’re all evil and suck at being a human. Everywhere I go it seems like we’re all caught up in being the Individual. What I mean by that is we are all tuned into living this life as a human, but more so the ego that drives us. We’re focused on what others think of us, view us, or what they even do to us. The end result causes us to mentally break down and feel alone in this daunting world.
Social media even cuts in to fuck our brains up even more with people taking to instagram to flaunt their joyous lives while some of us sit in a 4 cornered room in the ghetto. Our social fabric is terrible sewn together and all we’re doing is making the situation worse by not learning about one another.
People want world peace and an end to racism but don’t apply the effort to begin the revolution. I mean like what the hell is Black Lives Matter doing other than causing traffic jams? The KKK out here storming the streets beating people. The Police are killing black people like flies. We all talk about these issues but what in the FUCK are we doing?
~ keep it all smiles
My life is just so weird. These past few months have been strange. See before I used to live life where I was more concerned about the past few weeks and kept moving forward without looking back. But now in recent time (sorry im high) I’ve begun to look over these periods in months and see a shift in me still not being shit.
I can’t think like this forever though, I mean who’s to say that tomorrow might be that day I my music is heard by the right people? Who’s to say that my edit on instagram won’t get me a skateboard sponsor. Do you see what I’m chasing after? Literally dreams. Dreams that for some reason within me seem so unrealistic that I don’t want it. But the problem is that at the same time I can envision in great detail that fortune will come. I can’t just go blindly though, for I must focus and build an empire of which will continue to feed the next generations.
My friends just don’t call me Afro or Afrodamus to be just saying this. I mean the whole goal is to climb the mental construct that we have created that runs the world and achieve the dreams, goals, and ambitions of a much brighter future. A future that I feel will give me the opportunity to create more and open minds, for the ones who see no more than what they choose to perceive.
I think its time to change the channel.
~ keep it all smiles
Originally posted on facebook 12/23/16
I swear if I hear one more person project negativity by saying it’s going to be a terrible night I’m gonna explode. Seriously. I cringe when people say “It’s gonna be a shit show!” It’s only going to be a shit show because that’s how you want to view it. Give tonight’s sort a positive outlook and no matter how heavy things get, we’ll be happy and walk out of UPS later tonight with a sigh of relief and egg nog waiting for us at home.
But wait, JAMIL’S opinion doesn’t matter because people never want to take in consideration the books I read.
This is a post from Thought Catalog. It was very moving for me considering the fact that this entire year has been full of many changes. Not just externally but inside of me. The things I want to do, the ideas I want to say, the people who are around me.
I’m glad that I read this.
Ieva UrencevaYou’re allowed to outgrow certain people; people who don’t see the greatness in you, people who don’t believe in you and people who don’t see you for who you really are. You’re allowed to distance yourself from anything that doesn’t motivate you or make you grow, you’re allowed to choose who has a say…
via You’re Allowed To Change — Thought Catalog
I read a blog post this morning that Natalie Cole, the daughter of Nat King Cole, passed away the other day. She was only 65. I never really listened to her music but it shocked me because she was one of those people who’s names are automatically placed in your head because their famous. The article reminded me of the time that Michael Jackson passed away. I just remember sitting in my room after popping in his Dangerous album and listening to a man who once was alive. Its a chilling feelings. I noticed something that day though.
I noticed that everyone else in their own type of remembrance was listening to Michael Jackson. It wasn’t that long after that every one was listening to him and it made me wonder what would have happened if he didn’t pass. Would people listen to his music? Would they have bought the collectors edition of his albums or spent all that money to watch “This is it” in theaters? Just a week before he moved on to the next life you couldn’t find anyone jamming to Billie Jean unless they were a Michael Jackson fan.
Hows does this tie in to Natalie’s Death? Well its an example (to me at least) of how we tend to take people for granted. You can’t always tell yourself, “Oh I’ll see Billy tomorrow.” Billy may not be here tomorrow so you should spend time with him now. This life is a very unpredictable as we all know and ever since High School, I’ve seen a lot of people die. Some of them I have never talked to, one of them I kind of knew. I’ve been out of High School for 3 years now so that shows you how unpredictable life can turn out to be.
So the moral of this story is…
Don’t take people for granted. Make the effort to go see someone that way if they do move away, pass away, or anything, you won’t have that shitty little feeling sitting on your chest. Anyways, Rest in Peace to Natalie King Cole.
~ Keep it all smiles
Well guys we did it, another successful year down in the books. Now its time to celebrate and have a good time right? That could be a way to spend the first day of the new year but I would suggest something different. Let me suggest that we take another moment of reflection time and pull together a list of goals that we can complete this year. We have 365 days to build and grow our elves. We are more than what we seem and we should shoot for the stars when it comes to the schematics of this.
The first day of the new year must be the preparation period of which you use to plan and organize. Once the list is complete, hang it in a place where you are shown this list everyday. Day by day accomplish the small steps that lead to the top of each of the task pyramids. But its the new year and I know, we all want to drink and party. Well how about we just all drink and party with some good friends and make a mixtape or something. haha! (We actually did that tonight).
Happy New Years Guys! Hope that you have a splendid year and reach to the highest of mountains to obtain the real life valued gold.
ps. Lets Grow Together
~ Keep it all smiles
In 2011 I wouldn’t have never thought that I would be where I am at today. Like back then I can really say that I had childish thoughts. I mean I was just in high school, I believe it was Junior year. I remember just looking off into the future dreaming of going AM for some skate team. I had it all planned out. But now as I look at everything I guess my heart wasn’t really where I wanted it to be. I really want this, I want to be able to skate any everywhere that I want and actually make a living from it. Maybe its my fear of hitting rails? I don’t know, I don’t mean to sound like a “diva” or anything.
Going back to the top, none of this seems to be real right now. I feel like I had other great plans and ideas. I literally got out of school and went into the world with no aim. I think I should have stuck with writing during the entire time. If I did that I would have gone way further than where I am right now with this. Its just so frustrating, my emotions run amidst a sea of dreadful and uncaring thoughts. I’m twisted in the head. I think thats my reasoning for smoking weed so much now. I have not other way of coping with my insanity. Its so bad, like I have a serious problem.
I can’t say that I will ever try to get this fixed but as far as I see right now? I won’t. I’m sorry for being such a waste to the world. But I regret saying that because this world means nothing to me if it choose’s to look down on me. Theres no need for the pity or the whiny ass “I’m sorrys” I don’t got time for that shit. Just leave me be dammit!
Anyways, thats me just ranting about life. Sorry for the depressing moment.
ps. You know I can’t leave you guys on a sad note. Keep up and stay humble and let the Universe work in your favor. Holla .
~ Keep it all smiles