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Liberals are blowing my twitter up on this fine Saturday Morning.

~ keep it all smiles

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I haven’t been learning shit because you have taken up space in my mind. Like how in the hell you living there rent free? You know I charge and thats gonna be a sack of weed and $200 a day cus’ I’m petty.

The fact of the matter is that I don’t know how to get over myself. I don’t know how to get over silly shit that occurs in the everyday lives of just about every fucking human that walks this miserable place. We’re all suffering and surprisingly, the same. I don’t wanna take part in this mental shenanigans so I deleted those pussy ass songs I made which were “munchies 4 ur luv” and the entire tracklist to “Woman Make A Man Sing.”

~ keep it all smiles

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A Sense of Belonging

The constant cycle of nothingness that has formed inside of my head is quite a wonderful joyride. Sometimes when I look out the window I can relax and take in the scenic routes, although that is only a dream though. I’m trapped inside this never ended thought of how I should really be living life. Am I certainly going to relish in this agony or am I going to revolt and be more than what I could be? It’s its never right or wrong but who cares right?

With so much to tackle in life what’s really worth living for? The materialistic ways of this world or the social constructs we involve ourselves in? I’m just think about it, we build this fantasy land that we love to frolic in but never look beyond the written word. How can this be with such intelligent minds?

Now we’re both lost.

But don’t worry, it was never to be answered. I guess what I really needed to say was, fuck what you think about my sophisticated ways of piecing these words down. The hate I carry can be placed wherever I want and nobody likes to be right there. Such bullshit if you ask me. Such bullshit that this even exist. AND FOR WHAT FUCKING REASON HUH? TELL ME?!

Obligations? yeah so whatever, I’m lazy as fuck and couldn’t give a shit.

Its funny trying to follow a train of thought right?

~ keep it all smiles

Mountain Dew Mouth

I’m surrounded by strangers whose thoughts concern me only when in doubt. I’ve at some point consumed the drama that brews within this untamed group of individuals and it caused me to lose hope in people.

How are we to be together when all we do is argue and belittle one another? The exchange of words behind another person’s back is just as crippling as a shotgun shell to the face. Why do we do this? Where is the war and what is there to be won?

~keep it all smiles~

Camo Pants

There is a side of me that my friends do not know about and it’s this blog I have here. I’ve mentioned it a few times before to a couple of buddies but I saw the disinterest.

I like to spend time writing about whatever, it makes me feel good. I can just swiftly dance away in a field of words then step back into the rigid quick rhymes I compose so frequently. The times I feel alone is where I feel at my best because that’s where my mind spills it’s energy into the abyss.

The world is the abyss. The place where shit just so happens to be stumbling around. I never try to cater to what’s around but it’s always like “fuck it,” as I straddle around. I’m just trying to conform in an unconventional way so I can achieve a purpose unsatisfied by my anger. I like to call it lost hate. There’s no template for it, it just is what it is.

So to summarize it all up, as I continue to write I wonder if this is for me or the lonely reader on the internet gazing upon millions of articles. I have nothing special here for you other than my regards and reasons for why I act the way I do. That shits always thrown at ya in a weird way so try not to look for it. I can’t find it either.

~keep it all smiles~

qwerty with these dorito fingers

I’m trying to think of ways to get my mind back on track. Theres nothing wrong with me other than … never mind. Look, I’m here because I’m struggling. I’m just trying to live ya know? Isn’t this what we all want? A life? A future?

I find it quite hard to be intent and in the moment. Meditation used to work for me a long time ago but that slowly faded away. I’m not sure why but theres this feeling I can’t shake and I just don’t understand it. I don’t understand the fear and where it comes from. Why must everything come down to the decisions I make and why do I constantly stress over the small factors?

Peace isn’t just a dream but a reality. I achieved it once. Lasted for just a millisecond but the fact of the matter is, I did it. The feeling was wonderful, I can remember it vaguely but deep down I want to be right there again. Right now I’m just fixated on someone and it’s like, why? Why can’t I just have those moments where their not at the forefront of my mind.

this wasn’t proof read, i don’t care

~ keep it all smiles

U ON MY MIND DAY IN AND DAY OUT AND THIS SHIT IS FUCKIN WITH ME

Shes all I think about and is all I want… but I don’t know why.

Why am I so attracted to her?

Why do I fall into a hypnotized state everytime I’m around her, almost speechless because I don’t wanna say something toO silly. Why do I even have these feelings and spend days talking about it to myself.

why?

somedays I try to make myself cry because I just want that emotional relief but i just can’t. I’m constantly wrapping my head around multiple different realities, always lost in another world.

Like fuck, I wrote a whole song about this chick? DO YOU HEAR ME GUYS! I WROTE A WHOLE ENTIRE SONG ABOUT A WOMAN AND SHE DOESN’T HAVE THE SLIGHTEST CLUE THAT ITS ABOUT HER. SHE HEARD IT!!!

i feel dumb sometimes because i make things way harder than life is supposed to be.

~ keep it all smiles