i think im back

Theres this thing I always try to do when I write now.

I remember when I first started blogging the way I would write consisted of a bunch of thoughts, ideas, and random nonsense. To this day I still write the same but I’m always trying to find this one frequency that made me feel like fluid.

I was starting to feel it until MSNBC came back on in the background and disturbed my train of thought with more MASS SHOOTING NEWS. I’m starting to get tired of hearing about this shit. Anybody else out there think that these massacre events are made up? I don’t want to start some drama or any conspiracy theory thinking, but can we all talk about this? Why are “deranged” human beings grabbing guns and murdering people?

AND WHO WROTE THAT SPEECH FOR TRUMP?

The fact of the matter is, I’m trying to reach that wave I like to ride on when I’m cruising away at the keyboard. This same keyboard has gotten me through a little bit of college by the way. Besides that, I want to be a writer again. I want to be that dude that once dreamed of writing up and drawing cartoons. That guy who watches anime and gets lost in another world. I just want reality to slow down for one second so I can get my head on straight enough to focus on what’s important to me and has created the person who brings these words to you.

~ keep it all smiles

Can’t believe it but read it

So I have this friend and we have a strange relationship. Now when I mean friend, I refer to them as just a mere associate all because the relationship is one sided.

It’s sometimes hard for me to grasp how we even have this weird dynamic that works for only so many hours. Once it’s done it’s over with and then we part until the next meeting.

I kinda don’t like it because its one of those things that come about when you’re placed in a situation that stems from the need of a particular item or life style, resulting you to take part in an activity.

None the less, it’s strange that these things just kind of come about but who am I to say what’s wrong and right when we all have the same misconception. Regardless, we wouldn’t even be able to understand it, not to mention the amount of time it would take.

What ever it is, I got to make some serious changes.

~ keep it all smiles

unauthorized

I have an issue.

I’ll go about it plain and simple with a whole lot of extra stuff because that’s how I be.

I want a girlfriend. I don’t know why, maybe it’s because I feel lonely, but whatever. I just do. Now having a significant other has been a thought that’s been in my mind ever since I was young. I want to blame it on how we look at humanity and and this whole relationship thing but I really don’t know. The fact of the matter is, I think it’s a humanly thing and right now at the age of 24 thats what has been on my mind. Right now in life I just want to focus on my creativity and let that flourish but I feel like the “wanting” of a “lover” in my world is hindering me.

I cannot fully say that the thought is destroying me because I just turn around and make another song, but when I hear my music it’s all the same bullshit just told differently over beats. I got this weird ass feeling of settlement and wanting to have the rock next to me holding me up. When I stop and look at how I am towards others, I begin to question if I am even ready. Like I’m totally the guy who believes that everything happens for a reason, so I never really tell myself something isn’t going to happen because at the end of the day we don’t know.

Right now I got a crush on a girl though. Haven’t even tried to display the confidence in wanting to get to know her because I’m a wimp. I build up my thoughts and always let the shit crash when there’s nothing else left to be added. That’s what I’ve done at this point. My hopes are very high but for no reason. I bitch out when I want to say anything and the conversation dies. I….. I’m just a fearful human who lets his emotions control how he interacts with other humans.

 

no point in giving up though.

 

i got hit by a car in september and i’m still alive.

 

 

there is something here on earth for me to accomplish.

 

 

 

i must achieve.

 

ps. heine bros

 

pps. .. i need to get a life because seriously, i just skate, rap, and make beats.

 

~ keep it all smiles

lets not get political and just laugh

The video below is from a Waka Flocka concert. For the readers who don’t listen to rap as much as I do, he’s gotten better. haha But anyways can we just drop the political shit for a moment and laugh at the fact that he wiped his arse with a shirt from somebody in the crowd? This seriously has to be the best thing I’ve seen all of 2017. haha

This will go one of two ways: either Trump rage tweets about the video as a way to distract from whatever scandal tomorrow brings, or he appoints Waka Flocka Flame as the new secretary for Health and Human Services, citing the rapper as a shining example for personal hygiene. A fan showed @WakaFlocka a trump jersey…

via Waka Flocka Flame wiped his ass with a Donald Trump t-shirt — Consequence of Sound

IoT

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I remember when I was much smaller I wanted a computer SOOO bad.
 
Everyone I knew had one.
 
On top of that, when people started getting cell phones I was last to get one. On the boot of it, I had to pay for my minutes because I wasn’t on my parents monthly plan.
 
Now that I have grown a lot older, I have managed to achieve those goals I had as a small child. I have a computer, smartphone, and a tablet that are all synced together. I am practically connected to every way that you could possibly access the internet, which was so precious to me when I was younger. Precious because I didn’t have access to it, knowing that all of my friends were on websites playing games and chopping it up in chat rooms.
 
Here I am years later with all the technology that I could possibly dream of and all I do is sit on facebook. My post are vulgar, full of errors and out right rants. I share memes, videos, and goofy pictures of my friends. I scroll hours at a time looking at pointless post that don’t mean a hill of beans in my life.
 
THIS is what I do each and every day, burning countless hours of my life in a virtual world where not one person can sincerely care about you. Status updates saying I’m depressed, countless unchecked notifications becasue it was just a “Like.”
 
this is what i do
 
I’m not sure if I like this. I have found myself lately finding joy in reading a book, minus the ebook part. I’ve been trying to find ways that I can be more productive and manage my time in a such a manner, that will allow me to accel forward.
 
The moral of this story is, my life is consumed in a bunch of likes, shares, and rude comments from characters who think the earth is flat. This is not what I envisioned. I honestly saw myself later on down the road as one of those nerds who spent a lot of time on Secondlife interacting with strangers who just want to dance to EDM music DJ’d by a guy in Guam.
 
I’m just saying.
 
Point being, I got what I want but now I don’t use it for what I initially intended it for.
 
~ Keep it all smiles

i have a theory.

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I just thought of some shit. Now this is going to sound stupid in the beginning but please allow my high mind to reach its destination as we go through a bunch of bull shit.

First off I was thinking about the habit of smoking and the reason why we do it. If you haven’t smoked a cigarette, it’s not the pleasant of feelings. When you first start out you get light headed (at least it was for me) and then you feel like you want to puke or something. If you were stubborn like me and kept fiddling around with those damn things you would have become used to it and can take in the full effects of what a nicotine fix is like.

So anyways, people that smoke are doing it becasue of what they are receiving from the smoke which is nicotine. All good right? Well heres where my mind took a turn for the worse and began thinking about why we have lungs and maybe when we were created we were such a primate species that our design meant we needed lungs. Well going past that, lets look at how our body intakes stuff. For food and water we ingest it through our mouths and whatever the product contains will then travel through our system. (This is why they tell us to eat healthy, pay attention!)

Other ways stuff gets inside of our feeble bodies is through our lungs. Practically everything we breathe affects our body. That’s why we need to stop polluting the air. Now as I take a toke from the bong guess what I’m receiving? THC. Now where I’m going with this is going to sound strange but what my thoughts behind this were, “What if the reason weed is a medicine that can be smoked and only a primate species would think that.” What I’m saying is, weed is supposed to be here to aid us and is the most natural component here on earth. The plant can do a lot, what’s the point of trying to recreate what can already successfully be done. With the idea of how life originated and the common sense that could possibly be given, I Mr. Afro declare that WEED SHOULD BE LEGAL.

~ Keep it all smiles