qwerty with these dorito fingers

I’m trying to think of ways to get my mind back on track. Theres nothing wrong with me other than … never mind. Look, I’m here because I’m struggling. I’m just trying to live ya know? Isn’t this what we all want? A life? A future?

I find it quite hard to be intent and in the moment. Meditation used to work for me a long time ago but that slowly faded away. I’m not sure why but theres this feeling I can’t shake and I just don’t understand it. I don’t understand the fear and where it comes from. Why must everything come down to the decisions I make and why do I constantly stress over the small factors?

Peace isn’t just a dream but a reality. I achieved it once. Lasted for just a millisecond but the fact of the matter is, I did it. The feeling was wonderful, I can remember it vaguely but deep down I want to be right there again. Right now I’m just fixated on someone and it’s like, why? Why can’t I just have those moments where their not at the forefront of my mind.

this wasn’t proof read, i don’t care

~ keep it all smiles

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From time to time I tend to challenge myself with a little bit of bullshit.

Okay not really, I just thought that would be a good opening sentence because the rest of what I have to say may not even be relatable to you.

Its currently 71 degrees and rainy and here I stand with a laptop. My brain goes haywire just thinking about the actual history that has taken place at this house I live in. Before my parents moved in and brought me into this world apparently some old lady lived in my house.

Standing in the garage with the lightning illuminating off my keyboard, I can take a look and see the old wiring from when this garage had lights and a working door.

Today its bored up and those wires dangle loseley carrying no current like they once did.

I think something landed on my head and I’m not sure of what it could’ve been. Whatever it was had me swatting at my hair for 5 minutes only realising that I was just throwing more water all over my laptop cus my hair is SOAKED.

but whatever.

the internet needs to know that there are people like us who dwindle away at things that don’t even contribute to humanity. I mean shit, I know a guy who does nothing but watch anime by himself eating fast food all day. What kind of life is that?

i just write, i write bullshit becasue after its written i read through my poor grammar and laugh at my mistakes.

~ keep it all smiles

Matt Bevins, You are very closed minded.

Matt Bevins is stupid. I highly doubt that violent video games are the result of the mass shootings at schools. Also weed is not the reason for the opioid crisis here in KY, it’s Big Pharma who prescribes these drugs to patients in pain. What happens to them? They get addicted and BOOM… druggies are born.

~ keep it all smiles

Can’t believe it but read it

So I have this friend and we have a strange relationship. Now when I mean friend, I refer to them as just a mere associate all because the relationship is one sided.

It’s sometimes hard for me to grasp how we even have this weird dynamic that works for only so many hours. Once it’s done it’s over with and then we part until the next meeting.

I kinda don’t like it because its one of those things that come about when you’re placed in a situation that stems from the need of a particular item or life style, resulting you to take part in an activity.

None the less, it’s strange that these things just kind of come about but who am I to say what’s wrong and right when we all have the same misconception. Regardless, we wouldn’t even be able to understand it, not to mention the amount of time it would take.

What ever it is, I got to make some serious changes.

~ keep it all smiles

a stoner is…

A stoner is nothing more than an individual seeking to attain peace that cannot be found in this reality. In other words, this world is fucked up and full of influences. Reefer kinda filters that shit.

~ keep it all smiles

i have a theory.

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I just thought of some shit. Now this is going to sound stupid in the beginning but please allow my high mind to reach its destination as we go through a bunch of bull shit.

First off I was thinking about the habit of smoking and the reason why we do it. If you haven’t smoked a cigarette, it’s not the pleasant of feelings. When you first start out you get light headed (at least it was for me) and then you feel like you want to puke or something. If you were stubborn like me and kept fiddling around with those damn things you would have become used to it and can take in the full effects of what a nicotine fix is like.

So anyways, people that smoke are doing it becasue of what they are receiving from the smoke which is nicotine. All good right? Well heres where my mind took a turn for the worse and began thinking about why we have lungs and maybe when we were created we were such a primate species that our design meant we needed lungs. Well going past that, lets look at how our body intakes stuff. For food and water we ingest it through our mouths and whatever the product contains will then travel through our system. (This is why they tell us to eat healthy, pay attention!)

Other ways stuff gets inside of our feeble bodies is through our lungs. Practically everything we breathe affects our body. That’s why we need to stop polluting the air. Now as I take a toke from the bong guess what I’m receiving? THC. Now where I’m going with this is going to sound strange but what my thoughts behind this were, “What if the reason weed is a medicine that can be smoked and only a primate species would think that.” What I’m saying is, weed is supposed to be here to aid us and is the most natural component here on earth. The plant can do a lot, what’s the point of trying to recreate what can already successfully be done. With the idea of how life originated and the common sense that could possibly be given, I Mr. Afro declare that WEED SHOULD BE LEGAL.

~ Keep it all smiles

TBH (You Guys Ready For Summer?)

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Can you guys believe that March is almost over? It’s the damn 28th and my homework is due tomorrow at 11:59PM. April is just around the corner and you know what that means…ONLY A MONTH until MAY! I like May for all sorts of reasons, mainly because of the Kentucky Derby. Beer and weed is all we need around here! Going back over to April, Thunder Over Louisville kicks off which pretty much asserts that the Derby is on the way.

I’m constantly dreaming all the time about moving somewhere else and living life in a different city but there’s one thing for certain, I have to come back to Louisville. Maybe I’ll have two home? Who knows, I just like this time of year due to the fact that the entire city gears up for one of the biggest parties the world has seen! I mean we got fireworks, race horse’s, Bourbon, I mean shit! These are good times and things will get better as all of my homies progress and move forward with our lives as we should. I been doing a lot of thinking lately and have decided that once I barely make it out this semester of College in this terrible Algebra class, I’m not going back. I’ve been bitching and moaning a lot about college and now I have realized that I have more opportunities than just a piece of paper declaring that I have an Associates.

You may have seen me talk about this on my blog before but I plan on going to Code Louisville. It’s a programming course that’s free and it’s held at the public Library downtown. I’m gonna enroll so I can learn to program and get the hell out of UPS. As the days go on, I’ve begun to realize that this loop I’m in is getting old and that I won’t be rapping in a Garage forever.

Other than that, have a good Monday night and let this week bring you Good Fortune!

~ Keep it all smiles

i promise i;m not highh

Alright guys we gotta do this fast!

I don’t do this often but… the lights are bright and I am currently on another level!!! I got the bright lights with the glorious looking keys and black bands that prove existence!

Can’t you see? We got more perception than you think. Theres more that needs to be met with eyes and we can actually find this. We have the power and knowledge that excel us in a way that will create brilliance! For some people this may seem like a very confusing and enticing calling, but this needs to be rather taken on serious terms.

There isn’t that much left, the time is here and now. The now can never be re-created so there is only one shot that can destroy the evils that lie within! You cannot desecrate the needy and lend to the poor. Thats more of analogy that was never thought of. Probably in the midst of the cannibals hands, the ties between corn shells will never be made. You got to think, its all fun and games until someone gets hurt.

IM OUT!

ps. Yo I’m sorry that you  had to read all of that rubbish. I do not take back anything I said so you can suck it! haha! Let them read this one and see if that face don’t change!

~ Keep it all smiles

I Make Garage Music

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Just like your backyard scientist, I too live in my garage creating master pieces. Sometimes I like to think of them as just rubbish pieces of work but then I realize all of the hard effort I put into them and I drop it all. haha. Whether your lost in what I’m saying or not, what I’m trying to say is that I make music in my garage. Its not the tidest of places but I make room to do what I got to do.

When I get any off day from working UPS and my dad I am in here. I have a welders blanket set up as an isolation pad and my mic sitting right in the middle. My laptop and audio interface are right next to me on top of blue pales full of soap. My normal routine when I come out here is first, setting up the equipment. Next I roll up a joint or maybe pack up a bowl and smoke. Right after that I search for an instrumental and then set up garageband. After that I freestyle and boom!

At first when I did it I was rapping the most shittest freestyles. After a while of just practicing I got better and eventually churned out more songs that sounded good. To be honest though I’m not to fond of all my freestyle work. I feel like I’m rushing the process of making a work of art. I love to write raps but I think at this point I just want to hear myself. I think I’m letting that distract me from what I really should be doing. I should probably figure out something because as I have been saying in my freestyles tonight, “I need help!”

~ Keep it all smiles

I Don’t Always Get High

  As the title reads, take it how you would like. Haha, yeah so I’m pretty stoned right now but I wanted to get on here and talk you y’all a bit. “Oh so what do you want you fucking weed addict!” I’m first of all let’s clear the air a little bit. I am not a weed addict. I just smoke marijuana on a regular basis because it helps with my minor depression and the fact that I have a lousy out look on life.

I mean it isn’t that bad, I usually look at it is a type of self medication. For example, there is nothing wrong, I’m just high. That statement may sound a very abstract and out there, but don’t question it and just pretend. I mean hell, I know you do anyways because life isn’t what it seems. How so? Let’s take a book and open it. There’s a lot of pages isn’t it? Pages are paper, a common material that is used for a lot of stuff. Now, let’s take paper and put words on it. What have we done? We’ve gave it power!

It makes all sense but hey, I got to stop talking right now. My buddy Daimont is playing Hannibal Buress on his iPhone 4s. (He occasionally argues with Siri). So anyways, I’m going to go.

Ps. Smoke weed

Pss. Everyday

~ Keep it all smiles