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Day three and I managed to leave the bag of cheese flavored Bugles open again. I really need to stop doing that. I can taste how stale they are getting by the day. Its going to be a cold pizza morning. I’m talking about the round ones that are small and can be warmed up in about 2 minutes. I don’t have time, I just got to go because in the end we all die so why waste time?

Time is something that fucks me over and over again because I go against everything I say and stay in my bed asleep for no reason. I’m lost, hopeless, yet on a mission of some sorts and I will get it somehow. It’s all a matter of will and if I can fight off what has caused me to become this bitter slow human.

If only video games could cure me, that would be the much more desirable effect. I can’t complain about what’s has made it to the forefront of my future. With all the bells and whistles, Im set for the years to come.

~ keep it all smiles

ps. NIGGA THIS PIZZA IS FIRE!

qwerty with these dorito fingers

I’m trying to think of ways to get my mind back on track. Theres nothing wrong with me other than … never mind. Look, I’m here because I’m struggling. I’m just trying to live ya know? Isn’t this what we all want? A life? A future?

I find it quite hard to be intent and in the moment. Meditation used to work for me a long time ago but that slowly faded away. I’m not sure why but theres this feeling I can’t shake and I just don’t understand it. I don’t understand the fear and where it comes from. Why must everything come down to the decisions I make and why do I constantly stress over the small factors?

Peace isn’t just a dream but a reality. I achieved it once. Lasted for just a millisecond but the fact of the matter is, I did it. The feeling was wonderful, I can remember it vaguely but deep down I want to be right there again. Right now I’m just fixated on someone and it’s like, why? Why can’t I just have those moments where their not at the forefront of my mind.

this wasn’t proof read, i don’t care

~ keep it all smiles

corrugated recycles

From time to time I tend to challenge myself with a little bit of bullshit.

Okay not really, I just thought that would be a good opening sentence because the rest of what I have to say may not even be relatable to you.

Its currently 71 degrees and rainy and here I stand with a laptop. My brain goes haywire just thinking about the actual history that has taken place at this house I live in. Before my parents moved in and brought me into this world apparently some old lady lived in my house.

Standing in the garage with the lightning illuminating off my keyboard, I can take a look and see the old wiring from when this garage had lights and a working door.

Today its bored up and those wires dangle loseley carrying no current like they once did.

I think something landed on my head and I’m not sure of what it could’ve been. Whatever it was had me swatting at my hair for 5 minutes only realising that I was just throwing more water all over my laptop cus my hair is SOAKED.

but whatever.

the internet needs to know that there are people like us who dwindle away at things that don’t even contribute to humanity. I mean shit, I know a guy who does nothing but watch anime by himself eating fast food all day. What kind of life is that?

i just write, i write bullshit becasue after its written i read through my poor grammar and laugh at my mistakes.

~ keep it all smiles

i have a theory.

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I just thought of some shit. Now this is going to sound stupid in the beginning but please allow my high mind to reach its destination as we go through a bunch of bull shit.

First off I was thinking about the habit of smoking and the reason why we do it. If you haven’t smoked a cigarette, it’s not the pleasant of feelings. When you first start out you get light headed (at least it was for me) and then you feel like you want to puke or something. If you were stubborn like me and kept fiddling around with those damn things you would have become used to it and can take in the full effects of what a nicotine fix is like.

So anyways, people that smoke are doing it becasue of what they are receiving from the smoke which is nicotine. All good right? Well heres where my mind took a turn for the worse and began thinking about why we have lungs and maybe when we were created we were such a primate species that our design meant we needed lungs. Well going past that, lets look at how our body intakes stuff. For food and water we ingest it through our mouths and whatever the product contains will then travel through our system. (This is why they tell us to eat healthy, pay attention!)

Other ways stuff gets inside of our feeble bodies is through our lungs. Practically everything we breathe affects our body. That’s why we need to stop polluting the air. Now as I take a toke from the bong guess what I’m receiving? THC. Now where I’m going with this is going to sound strange but what my thoughts behind this were, “What if the reason weed is a medicine that can be smoked and only a primate species would think that.” What I’m saying is, weed is supposed to be here to aid us and is the most natural component here on earth. The plant can do a lot, what’s the point of trying to recreate what can already successfully be done. With the idea of how life originated and the common sense that could possibly be given, I Mr. Afro declare that WEED SHOULD BE LEGAL.

~ Keep it all smiles

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Okay guys, I’m just going to get straight to it.

Castro is dead.

Now this post isn’t about his death, it’s about the year as a whole and how many people that have died. Now of course we all know that people die every day, but isn’t it crazy that all of these well known human beings died all in the same year? These humans aren’t just some average joe humans, these are people that have made an impact on us in someway or another. I mean hell, Prince died. How shocking is THAT!

Trying to wrap my head around this makes my brain hurt.

I really wonder about what goes on in the world sometimes but I tell myself to not question it becasue I get more dumber by the minute. My mind goes further than it should, discovering new ideas but also asking more questions. This time around its scaring me. Going back to my point, people are dropping left and right around us.

Let us all share positivity.

~ Keep it all smiles

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I would first off like to let everyone know that today will be a good day so don’t worry about the rain!

Now, lets take you guys on a journey into my mind this morning. Yes I fly a kite way out there and I thought a shower would kill it but I guess not. Anyways; I just noticed that I use that word a lot when I make blogpost. I really need to stop that.

Theres more to life than what we see correct? If you agree upon that staement then proceed forward with caution becasue this is about to be a scary ride. Now if you are at your computer right now I want you to stop completely what you are doing. Sit there still, breathing very slowly. While doing this, begin to survey the area around you and feel the presence of everything that is exsistance!

Did you feel it?

What I was trying to make you do is try and experience realtiy. Now what I mean by that is that I am trying to allow you to realize reality. According to the Oxford Dictionary, Reality means: The quality of being real, something real and not imaginary, and life and the world as the really are. Another way you can explain this is the existance of everything conceputal and nonconceptual.

When I came across thsi information, I took a minute to realize everything around me the existance of it. With our everyday lives taken up buy working a job or going to school, we never really have the time to even think about something like that.

If all of this is confusing to you than I apologize, this nothing more than of me just ranting about insidious thoughts that float around my brain. Or maybe we can look at this as some type of … yeah I don’t know. Just try not to take me too seriously becasue that never works in life.

~ Keep it all smiles