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I have an issue.

I’ll go about it plain and simple with a whole lot of extra stuff because that’s how I be.

I want a girlfriend. I don’t know why, maybe it’s because I feel lonely, but whatever. I just do. Now having a significant other has been a thought that’s been in my mind ever since I was young. I want to blame it on how we look at humanity and and this whole relationship thing but I really don’t know. The fact of the matter is, I think it’s a humanly thing and right now at the age of 24 thats what has been on my mind. Right now in life I just want to focus on my creativity and let that flourish but I feel like the “wanting” of a “lover” in my world is hindering me.

I cannot fully say that the thought is destroying me because I just turn around and make another song, but when I hear my music it’s all the same bullshit just told differently over beats. I got this weird ass feeling of settlement and wanting to have the rock next to me holding me up. When I stop and look at how I am towards others, I begin to question if I am even ready. Like I’m totally the guy who believes that everything happens for a reason, so I never really tell myself something isn’t going to happen because at the end of the day we don’t know.

Right now I got a crush on a girl though. Haven’t even tried to display the confidence in wanting to get to know her because I’m a wimp. I build up my thoughts and always let the shit crash when there’s nothing else left to be added. That’s what I’ve done at this point. My hopes are very high but for no reason. I bitch out when I want to say anything and the conversation dies. I….. I’m just a fearful human who lets his emotions control how he interacts with other humans.

 

no point in giving up though.

 

i got hit by a car in september and i’m still alive.

 

 

there is something here on earth for me to accomplish.

 

 

 

i must achieve.

 

ps. heine bros

 

pps. .. i need to get a life because seriously, i just skate, rap, and make beats.

 

~ keep it all smiles

Love Stinks

This has been one short summer. I get a job at UPS and my summer disappears within a blink of an eye. Its crazy how life will soon be a bitter place once we become old and can’t do anything without the help  of  “healthy” people. If I was an old man in a nursing home, I would go crazy…..CRAZY! I’m serious, how many of y’all would want to be in a building with a bunch of other old smelly old folks? Just think if all you y’all was young again!? It would be hectic up in there.

What I’m really here to talk a bout other then silly little facts in life is about how love can screw a man over. I’ve never really been in love or maybe even head over heals for a women but it can really mess you up. The only advice that I can give you is to not fall in love because it will bite you in the back like a piranha came out the water and was after ya’. I’m serious! You better be a bachelor all your life and just have sex with everyone hot chick you find…BUT DON’T FALL IN LOVE!

Now if it does come to the point that you are with someone and you want to marry them…well that’s a whole other story right there. Like my buddy CJ said, “I gotta really love this women if I’m gonna marry her”, and thats true! Just think about it, you gotta be with that women or man for the rest of your miserable human life. I can’t do it, you got to be out of your mind if you think I’m gonna marry a chick. It may happen though, I wanna have kids and all and you know..raise a family. But thats down the road. Right now I’m trying to chill and not let some dumb hot braud interfer with what I’m trying to do with myself.

Somebody tell her to CLOSE THEM LEGS CUS’ I AIN’T GETTIN’ IN-BETWEEN THEM!

-Wisdom Spoken From An Angry Black Guy