exploding rock™

You’re all I ever think about these days. My mind runs wild with fantasies of what a future with you would be like. But they are just a fantasy. I live in a world of dreamscapes that transcend space and time but in reality I’m stranded. I’m standing on the shore with my eyes wide to the possibilities that come forth and yet you won’t give in to me.

Every time I have you in my arms I feel at peace. I feel as if the whole world has stopped and gave us a moment to share indefinitely. But when we part I break. I break knowing that it’s all in your hands and I have no idea of where this may lead. Wanting you is one thing, but having you by my side is another. Having you in my life has been such a blessing and a curse that I’m having trouble sleeping. I have dreams where we live our days in bliss, then I wake up to the reality that you may not want me anymore.

I hope you don’t read this because if you are I’m crying. I’m sorry I got attached. I’m sorry I have these feelings. I’m sorry that I didn’t stack up to the ideal person you want but please… Just give me time…please let me grow like the cantaloupe you planted. I’m not fond of finding another right now. I chose you… So I just wonder if you’ll ever choose me.

~keep it all smiles