Its April 25th and today I woke up with only sneezing one time. Within the past month I have been sneezing non-stop when I wake up from my daily slumber. I asked my doctor a few weeks ago if I could get a refill on my allergy medicine and I got no response. To tell you the truth though, I have never been diagnosed with allergies nor do I even know what I am allergic to. Is having allergies something you get diagnosed with anyways? These are the question I ask myself as the age of 30 looms over me like a rain cloud waiting to burst.
I live in the Ohio Valley so that’s one red flag. Like I said I’m not sure what I’m allergic to but I am assuming its pollen. But here’s the kicker, from a quick Google search I have discovered that my allergic reaction can be from one of 3 types of different pollen! Do I sound illiterate now? The lack of research I have done for myself is belittling. Oh let me not forget that I’m pretty sure I’m allergic to cats and dust. Dust is a given, I have always sneezed from that but the cat allergies were new. I can remember it like it was yesterday, I was hanging out with my Buddy Eric as his house smoking some pot and his roommates cat came downstairs to greet us. “Hey Pepe,” Eric says as he reaches down to pet him. As soon has he ruffles his fur right beneath me I instantly started sneezing. I looked at Eric and said “I think I may be allergic,” which caused Eric to dramatically say “SHOO!” to the cat, lol.
All in all, I’ve been sneezing a lot here lately and my nose runs constantly. I’ve found some 24hr allergy medicine that is similar to what my Doctor gave me a year ago and I think that is helping. I just started taking it so we’ll get some real results here in a few days. Other than that I think I’m going to jot some ideas for my next blog post which will be about manga that I have been reading. I’ve been wanting to talk about manga for a while on my blog and I think right now would be the perfect time. Until then…
~keep it all smiles.
I used to write on this site all the time but it seems here lately that I have forgotten that I even own a blog. These days I’m caught up in instagram, tiktoks, and whatever I find on YouTube to help me go to sleep. I think its time that I update everyone on what I have been up too which hasn’t been much.
Firstly I would like to discuss my recent addiction to manga. Now I have been an on and off reader of manga for a few years now. Back in Highschool (11 years ago) is when I first started looking into manga. I found this one book (which I can’t remember the name of) and read it in one day during English class. I think this was my sophomore year. It went by so quick that I wanted to buy the next book but I had no money. Fast forward to 2018 and had ShoenJump on my phone and MangaRock. I found this laid back manga called “Flat” which I thoroughly enjoyed but never got to finish because MangaRock got shut down. I also started to read “Fire Force” at the time as well. Sometime went by after that brief period and I hadn’t even opened up a manga or even tried to read one. When the pandemic hit I became a huge fan of Anime. I had already been watching Anime on and off but the Pandemic gave me all the time in the world to binge new genres that I never even thought about getting into. This is when I discovered I liked Slice of Life. For a full year all I did was watch Manga but in 2022 I kinda slowed down. I had just finished up the 3rds season to Fruits Basket and started up a new Anime which was Life Lessons with Urimichi Oniisan. It took awhile for me to finish that Anime as my life was started to pick back up and I had activities outside to do like skateboarding.
Once I started to suffer from Anxiety/Panic attacks I found myself house ridden and not wanting to leave anymore finding solace in my bedroom. Staying at home and being alone did not help with my anxiety because I would always feel on edge as if another attack was going to spur at any moment. To null that feeling I remember trying to read some manga on the ShoenJump app on my phone. I always hated trying to read on my phone because of the screen size so I picked up a Kindle Fire I gifted my mom a few years ago and sideloaded the ShoenJump app on there. Scrolling through I decided to read “Spy X Family” which kept popping up as an AD. This was waaay before the Anime came out and they were only 50 chapters in. While reading that manga I also started “Sakamoto Days” which I binged for a while. In the midst of all of this I also got really into Manhua and Webtoons.
Now here we are in 2023 and I am reading many different books. I also got into buying hard copies because I love reading the afterwards. Some of my favorites that I bought are Sweat & Soap, Living Room Matsunaga San, Crazy Food Truck, Persona 5, A Galaxy Next Door, and a bunch others.
MY FAVORITE MANGA RIGHT NOW THOUGH IS DANDADAN. I HAVE THE FIRST BOOK AND PLAN TO BUY THE SECOND BUT I’M ALREADY CAUGHT UP ON THE STORY BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN READING IT EVERY MONDAY ON MANGA PLUS APP. IT’S A REALLY GREAT MANGA AND YOU SHOULD READ IT TOO.
Well… that concludes my blog post.
~ keep it all smiles
So the time has come for the removal of my wisdom teeth. I first want to say that I will not miss all four of them boogers because they made Summer 2022 miserable. Here’s the story.
It all started back in April. One night after work my wisdom teeth were causing my unbearable pain. The pain was SO unbearable that it was triggering my anxiety and almost led to a panic attack. From then on my symptoms would get worse, my teeth would hurt or I would feel light headed. I made an appointment to get these damn things removed but my dumbass had no clue of how to get a dentist or even how the whole insurance thing worked. So unfortunately my first attempt failed because I had to first find a Dentist. (You can’t just show up to the dentist)
Eventually I found a dentist and they are located on Frankfort Ave. Dr Kirk is real cool and the staff are mighty friendly. Anyways they did some X-Rays of my teeth and showed me what I’m dealing with. The top two teeth have cavities and are on the verge of rotting out. The bottom two are fully grown in but are so close to the nerve that I have been warned that if removed, I may lose feeling in my lower Jaw. I was given a referral to a place nearby my dentist office and went to set up an appoint for consultation. Now trying to get that appointment set up is a whole nother story so if you wanna hear about that just hmu on twitter (@JamilBryant).
I had my consultation and the Doctor feels all up on my wisdom teeth with a strong index finger and then looks at me and says “I wish we had a time machine to bring you back to age 16.” He goes on to explain that the top two wisdom teeth will be fairly easy to remove but the bottom two will be difficult due to how close they are to the nerve and all. He pretty much told me the same shit my dentist said about the whole losing feeling in my lower jaw. After that he asked me what I wanted to do and… yeah the rest of the conversation is kind of a blur.
All I know is that this Thursday on the 21st I’m supposed to go in at 10am and get ALL FOUR TEETH removed from my mouth. I’m so happy because for the past week I’ve been on this antibiotic because one of my wisdom teeth broke and it got infected. Talk about PAIN.
Well anyways, If I’m feeling well enough after the surgery I’ll tell y’all all about it. Until then…
~keep it all smiles
Today I found out one of my employees is going to have a baby. He’s an older fellow but I’m happy for him. I wish the best for his family and that UPS supplies the best insurance and money because you know we’re all kind of experiencing the struggle these days.
It was a rather easy night but this week has been kinda rough since my anxiety disorder has decided to creep up on me. I’ve been tired for the last few days and have experienced small but sometimes startling panic attacks. I’ve been good for the past two months without having to take my medicine but I guess life is finally taking ahold of me again. What I don’t understand is why didn’t I go through any of this last month? If you are a follower of my blog you would know that I am a De-Ice coordinator at UPS. I haven’t really blogged about it in a while or maybe I haven’t mentioned it but to make a long story short, my job can get really stressful.
I basically control chaos.
I had this same conversation with one of my good friends who suffers from anxiety and he told me that the symptoms typically settle when you’re calm and relaxing, which is a tad bit infuriating. It’s usually when my mind is calm and at ease that my anxiety is triggered and I begin to panic and feel the impeding sense of doom. That has been the last few days for me, I’ve been tired, feeling dizzy at times, sometimes faint, or tense. Anxiety is shitty if you ask me but I just gotta keep on truckin’. I’ve been prescribed medication but it isn’t daily because my wonderful Doctor gave me the choice of naturally dealing with it. She suggested meditation which I highly advocate but just haven’t committed myself to the practice.
I’ve opted to listen to anxiety relief music which helps at times and I enjoy the tunes very much through headphones.
But that is all for now. I’ll be back soon to talk more.
~ keep it all smiles
It’s been a while.
A long while I might add, but hey sometimes you just have to step away and come back when you’re ready.
I’ve been coasting through live while contemplating how to overcome my newly discovered anxiety. Panic attacks are not fun and I certainly don’t want to feel on edge every day. I don’t think I never shared that here but I spent 12 hours in the ER all for them to tell me that they don’t know what’s wrong. Then what burns me up about it is that they send me a bill for $1,200 as if the Doctor really did something for me that night.
You would think after having this experience I would be focused on trying to discover way to create a better health care system or causing an uproar online about how shitty out healthcare system is. Well I didn’t think about all of that now and well… It’s too late now lol.
I’ve got more ideas and a lot of jumbled up thoughts so here’s to a new year and frequent blog post on the place I call home on the internet. I mean shit, I’m paying yearly for this domain name so I better get on here and write some shit.
~ keep it all smiles
Ps. I still be talking shit.
After months of not logging on to wordpress I finally got on here and was greeted by a wordpress courses ad. I thought about enrolling but then I was like “Who’s to say what I can write on here and how I go about it?” I’m pretty sure there’s some useful info I can learn but virtual meetups make me uneasy. It’s the same reason why I kinda flunked out of code louisville. I coulda been a programmer somewhere by now had I stuck with it.
Everything is everything and shit happens for a reason. The past 5 months have been somewhat of a doozy. Back in September I had a panic attack and life hasn’t been the same since. I done got promoted at work and became a supervisor, I’m surrounded by white bitches, and I’m at a weird standstill with music. I haven’t been hitting the garage lately and I’m not sure if its because of my association with weed and music or if I’ve lost motivation. Whatever the case may be my daily habits of inhaling smoke are gone. I’ve also made a lot of beats.
In this midst of the madness I’ve also caught coronavirus and have been playing a lot of Skater XL. I’ve been doing a lot more skating recently but with these cold temperatures I haven’t really made the effort of going outside. It’s just too damn cold and it’s upsetting to even say that because I’m the first motherfucker out of my friends to embrace the cold with pure happiness. I guess I’m getting old. I am 27 now.
Well, that’s enough for now. I’ll be back next time prepared to write better.
~ keep it all smiles
“See that brother understand where I’m coming from because of the thought patterns. You talking to a brother without a brain, that brother has a thought like a lightning bolt. A lightning bolt that’ll burn a motherfuckin Lee Trevino with a golf club with iron in his goddamn hand that’s why he don’t like metal” – Bizzy Bone
~ keep it all smiles
1.) People are selfish greedy assholes who care entirely about themselves.
2.) White people think they are currently being oppressed and now know what slavery is like after 2 months of sitting at home eating cheetos and attending Zoom meetings.
3.) IF Nuclear bombs were to come and destroy the world, everyday life would be like a Fallout game or societies favorite TV show, The Walking Dead.
4.) Belief in religious figures are apparently more important than saving all of humanity. If God is real than God is the reason this Virus is here and if God is the merciful being people claim God to be than God would not mind you celebrating any religious activity at home. I mean God wouldn’t want to purposely kill their children would they?
5.) Obama was the best president we ever had.
6.) Trump played more Golf in the White House than Obama.
7.) Humans are dirty and clearly do not care about social distancing. (You would after watching the particle video)
8.) If you’re middle class or simply poor you are considered essential and your life isn’t valued as much as someone who spent thousands going to a University to work their boring desk job.
9.) Germs can easily be spread so it’s important to wash your hands and santise any surfaces that you touched.
10.) To be frank, people are Stupid.
Liberals are blowing my twitter up on this fine Saturday Morning.
~ keep it all smiles
I haven’t been learning shit because you have taken up space in my mind. Like how in the hell you living there rent free? You know I charge and thats gonna be a sack of weed and $200 a day cus’ I’m petty.
The fact of the matter is that I don’t know how to get over myself. I don’t know how to get over silly shit that occurs in the everyday lives of just about every fucking human that walks this miserable place. We’re all suffering and surprisingly, the same. I don’t wanna take part in this mental shenanigans so I deleted those pussy ass songs I made which were “munchies 4 ur luv” and the entire tracklist to “Woman Make A Man Sing.”
~ keep it all smiles
ps. i really named it add title. that was not an error.