Shes all I think about and is all I want… but I don’t know why.
Why am I so attracted to her?
Why do I fall into a hypnotized state everytime I’m around her, almost speechless because I don’t wanna say something toO silly. Why do I even have these feelings and spend days talking about it to myself.
somedays I try to make myself cry because I just want that emotional relief but i just can’t. I’m constantly wrapping my head around multiple different realities, always lost in another world.
Like fuck, I wrote a whole song about this chick? DO YOU HEAR ME GUYS! I WROTE A WHOLE ENTIRE SONG ABOUT A WOMAN AND SHE DOESN’T HAVE THE SLIGHTEST CLUE THAT ITS ABOUT HER. SHE HEARD IT!!!
i feel dumb sometimes because i make things way harder than life is supposed to be.
~ keep it all smiles
So I know there has to be at least one person who is a very well respected blogger who has taken a look at my blog to see how much of a fail it is. Just look at it, well at how I write. I try to make my self sounds smart when I’m just a simple guy with a mind full of ideas that would make people get there lazy american asses up and actually go cut the lawn. See did you get that? I don’t think you got it. But as I write this I see that when I blog I write down what is going on in my mind. Stuff that I say when I talk to my idiotic friends and teach them something new because they sho’ aint teaching me anything new!
I tried to be a nerd at a time because I thought of how cool it would be to make a rocket ship that would fly to the sun and see what was inside…. No I’m joking, I wanted to just be smart and be really awesome at computers so I could be that guy people would ask about how to do such and such on a computer. Plus the guys in them movies looked cool doing it, matter of fact they still do. I don’t care what y’all dumb retards who hate smart people gotta say. There’s a reason why there in the gifted class in your still in LD. How did you even get here to my site anyway? Was you trying to find away to better your self so you searched up some random stuff just to come across a blog that talks about random stuff? Go read a book.
Now I’m really no writer, I completely fail at it. Do you know how many times I walk up to my English teacher in class to ask her random questions like “Did I do this right?” Or “I’m not sure on what you just said 2 minutes ago”, and get this. I’m in English Honors. I know its CRAZY! English honors and not to bright in the writing field. You can go over my whole blog and find so many errors that I missed or what my spell checker missed. I don’t suck at spelling to much though, only the big words I have never heard of before tricks me up when I’m not paying attention….but back to what i was saying, I’m NOT A WRITER!!! I would like to think that but looking at what I read is like reading my own mind. My mind is really crazy/messed up.
Theres so many things that go on in my head I don’t know what to do. I guess I’ll just keep writing on here and have my on and off readers look at what I think of. Maybe one day I’ll get popular and people will like viewing my blog, but I doubt that.