This Doesn’t Feel Deserving at All

I hate taking my break early. I work at part time job where we are guaranteed 3 hours but of course we work more. In my opinion, breaks should be optional.

See before I was taking my break towards the end of the night where I felt like I really needed it. Now our supervisor feels the need to enforce this new rule of taking breaks earlier in the night because we get done “quicker.” Sounds like bullshit to me but whatever.

All I’m saying is, I would really like to take a break more so towards the end of the night instead of 2 and a half hours in. The break doesn’t feel deserving at all. Feels like I’m just bullshitting for 10 minutes and then I come back to play with boxes more.

I can’t wait for the night to be over. 😑

~ keep it all smiles

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Pizza Thoughts

I’ve been on this pizza hut binge lately. For some reason when I think of Pizza I think of Pizza Hut and how I really enjoy their stuffed crust. Not to mention that I get this strange nostalgic feeling when I’m inside sitting down waiting for my order.

The only issue I have is how dirty the carpet is here but it looks like a bunch of construction workers just got off and didn’t brush their boots off. They say cleanliness is friendliness but shit, if yo pizza wasn’t picked up off the floor is it still a good American pizza?

~ keep it all smiles

HEY, I SAID FUCK DONALD TRUMP.

Its presidents day and everybody is bashing Trump.

I really like it; Taking a day where we are to celebrate our historical presidential lineage just to tell Trump that he’s an ass wipe. You got damn right Trump, today we are reflecting on how your inconsiderate, bald headed, just got a tan at 7am looking ass needs to get out of office. I can say all of this because I voted.

With the new release of Black Panther, it has me wondering where the hell all of these niggas were at when we had a chance to not vote in a racist son of a bitch. This is what we have to deal with and I will continue to talk about how much I hate trump due to his cry baby antics, misleading the public, and being totally aware all of this is happening but not giving a shit.

What makes things so fucked is that if Obama were caught up in a cheating scandal, had several divorces, and was in collision with the Russians, WHITE America would’ve had him thrown out before they could take him to court. This racial divide we have here in the States is troubling and for our kids that are growing up having to live through all of this makes no sense.

This is how we continue reliving the past in the future. We need better leaders and a more educated populous. But good leaders come from an educated populace so let’s focus on that first instead of Matt Bevins forcing schools to have Bible study. America has literally become the most laughable country in the world. Why should I be so proud to be American but as the same time be so oppressed?

 

Nothing really.

When I have nothing to blog about I make up something. Right now I have nothing to make up so I’m just going to leave this post as is and hope that you enjoy the fact that I took the time to say something even though its nothing.

Good Year WiFi

Waking up at 2pm is a myth to me. I typically stay up until 8 or 9am and sleep until 5pm. Sounds exciting right? A life like this is kind of boring when the only social activities available are at night with people you see in an allotted time.

I wish I could see my friends on the regular. It’s not like I can’t right now but I honestly don’t feel like getting up at noon to hang out with my friends who will have to go into work a few hours later. Maybe I’m just over thinking this and it’s really not that difficult. Only thing is, I make everything difficult so it doesn’t matter.

Why can’t we just all be on the same shift? I think my friends and I should just quit our current jobs and find a new one so we can be on the same shift. It’s just weird how much we yearn for human interaction. We all want to converse with others and make a connection. Even my anti social ass wants to mingle with people and be apart of a social construct. I wonder why life is this way.

I would like to assume it’s like this because of our ultimate goal of trying to conquer suffering and free ourselves from this hurtful earth.

Guess I gotta learn.

~ keep it all smiles

*sigh*

I totally need to calm down with these angry/sad post that I have been flooding my blog with these past years. I mean yeah, I’ve been going through some rough times mentally, but I don’t think I need to express my frustration in a way that makes it seem like I’m a cry baby.

I noticed a new feature on facebooks mobile app that allows you to view your profile the way a person who isn’t friends with you would. I totally forgot that my page is set to where people that are not my friends cannot see my facebook status’. What I didn’t remember was that all of my wordpress activity automatically uploads to my facebook and for all the public to see.

As I scrolled down I saw post after post of all the sad BS that I’ve posted over the recent months. I don’t think I’ve made any uplifting post in quite some time. I don’t even think I’ve made a post that asserted that life was going good. Thinking about it though, I have trained myself over the years to enter the blogosphere to rant and rave about whatever in the hell I’m going through. From my early post back in high school to now, I’ve wrote some of the gnarliest poetry to the most depressing heartbroken shit I could think of.

I really wanna blame facebook because the app is a totally legal drug with bad side effects. The side effects include jealousy, hate, love, depression, psychological torture, and a sprinkle of “WE CONTROL YOUR LIFE.”

I’m serious.

facebook has turned me into a monster.

MANY OF US ARE CREATIONS OF FACEBOOK.

MY DEPRESSION STEMS FROM FACEBOOK.

i really wanna delete facebook but how else am i gonna get a chicks number or stay in contact.

Oh, I’ll also be damned if I have to be one of those boyfriends who has to look at a Snap story or like every Instagram picture because really, I’m not on those sites often. I’ve cut back on facebook but I’ve been a member for quite some time. It’s never really going to go away. 

I am surprised I didn’t get hooked to twitter because back in the G I used to tweet my ass off. I kept up the tweeting habit until I realized that twitter is listerally based on a social status. If my following count is one sided I’m not gonna fuck with it. The purpose was to interact and share shit, now its like high school but on the internet and I am once again lame. 

Damn internet. 

Going back to my originally subject, I need to lighten up. I’m really just a laid back guy who doesn’t say much so for me to take action through words in a way I have been doing for years is kind of bothering me. Come to think of it, I had to rebrand myself as a rapper and talk more of what I know instead of trying to copy my favorite rapper Ab – Soul.

(Side note, I wanted to be hella lyrical and deep thinking like Soulo but that’s just a small portion of me.)

Maybe that’s what I need to do with this site. Rebrand myself and write about the shit I think about when I’m stoned or the natural beauty of life. I’m going to think about this.

VERY … VERY . . hard.

~ keep it all smiles

2018 & Im blogging again.

I’ve been silent for a while.

Not much has been floating around my mind to get me to hop on here and talk. I would typically voice my opinions on certain stuff and rant about life but as of late I just haven’t been feeling it.

I also have noticed that I start off all my blog post like this when I haven’t been much of an active blogger. It’s literally just a bunch of blah blah blah. But you know, guess that’s how life goes huh?

Anywho a lot of my time has been spent producing beats. In the beginning of 2016 I sat down behind my MacBook, downloaded the lite version of Ableton Live and began to make beats. After hours of YouTube videos I can finally say I’m a producer. I’m only declaring this because one of my beats made it onto an album that my friend is going to release. What’s crazy is that the beat is from my batch of what I call “Early Stages.” I remember the night like it was yesterday.

We were smoking weed in Matt’s garage, I grabbed the laptop and started playing shit I made. My boy Marc who was hanging out that day instantly started to vibe and the rest is history. Since then I think my beats have gotten better, I judge that perception based on what my friends think and if their heads or nodding.

It’s just the beginning though, I’ll forever be a student of music.

~ keep it all smiles

Stick to it and just do it

I can never really stick with anything, kind of like this blog. I told myself that I would hop on here daily or at least monthly and make a post but it seems to have not happened. As of recent I spend my days on tumblr reblogging random shit that I find scrolling up on my timeline.

What a way to enjoy life eh?

So as an attempt to get away from the comforts of my room, I made a trip to Heine Brothers, the coffee shop where I just so happen to make cool ass memories at. The sun is setting and my coffee is scalding hot. Might I mention that it’s 82 outside? I was out skating earlier but my skate session was cut short due to some guy who works in one of the buildings at this business complex came out to practice his golf swing. The last time I was skating in that area I think I may have pissed him off by the popping off my loud board as I flipped my deck to land some gnarly shit. Anywho, in respect I left because I’m pretty sure he had a long day at work and just wanted to swing his golf club in silence.

Besides the shenanigans of my everyday life, I just dropped a new single on Soundcloud. You should check it out.

I’m signing off for now, my brain is drawing a blank.

~ Keep it all smiles

 

HOT CHILI!!!

This is a very good read, made me want to go ahead and order a bottle of her Chili sauce, haha. The reason why I am sharing this is becasue towards the end of the article when they say that the Chinese Government has been urging her to go public with the company, she has refused stating that an IPO is just a way of tricking people out of their money.

I recently just invested in stocks and growing up as a child, dreaming of investing and making millions in the stock market, it’s not what it may seem. You really got to keep track of what’s going on. It’s literally a gamble which in return seems like I’m getting tricked out of my money. I guess I’ll learn someday.

Chinese netizens have crowned Tao Huabi, a 70-year-old granny, the “hottest woman in China.” Tao Huabi an her pricey red Bentley. Aside from being a trending topic in China, Tao also happens to be the founder of Laoganma Special Flavour Foodstuffs Co., maker of the nation’s most popular chili sauce. Interest in her has grown…

via The “hottest woman in China” is a 70-year-old grandmother with a chili sauce empire — Quartz

Trump is gonna build a wall that will be broken like Berlin.

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Like the rest of the logical thinking Americans here in the US, I oppose the wall that President Trump wants to build. I’ve heard people say time and time again how much of a great idea this would be but honestly it makes no sense. Yes, people from mexico cross the border every day entering this country illegally but really, do you think a large wall is going to stop them from coming over? Plus did you folks not hear about how some of the wall will just be fence? So in essence, that amazing wall that this dumbass in office plans to build really isn’t going to stop or change anything.

What really rubs me the wrong way about Trumps “Wall” is the fact that he claims that Mexico will pay for it. … Now if that isn’t complete utter bullshit than I don’t know what is. That’s like Canada building a wall and telling us to pay for it. I bet y’all would get really pissed about that huh? Talk about a double standard.

Now for those of you that are cursing at your phone or computer screen, telling me to go to hell, that is fine. I accept the fact that you are blinded by a false dream that America will be great again, but to be honest, in order to be “Great Again,” you have to acknowledge that America isn’t in the best shape. You have to acknowledge that the version of America that you want isn’t coming back. You have to realize that Millennials and Generation Z will overthrow the old heads in office because the predicament that we are in right now isn’t going to be changed by some unqualified, fascist president who think that bringing warehouse work back to America is going to change the future.

As always…

~ Keep it all smiles