*sigh*

I totally need to calm down with these angry/sad post that I have been flooding my blog with these past years. I mean yeah, I’ve been going through some rough times mentally, but I don’t think I need to express my frustration in a way that makes it seem like I’m a cry baby.

I noticed a new feature on facebooks mobile app that allows you to view your profile the way a person who isn’t friends with you would. I totally forgot that my page is set to where people that are not my friends cannot see my facebook status’. What I didn’t remember was that all of my wordpress activity automatically uploads to my facebook and for all the public to see.

As I scrolled down I saw post after post of all the sad BS that I’ve posted over the recent months. I don’t think I’ve made any uplifting post in quite some time. I don’t even think I’ve made a post that asserted that life was going good. Thinking about it though, I have trained myself over the years to enter the blogosphere to rant and rave about whatever in the hell I’m going through. From my early post back in high school to now, I’ve wrote some of the gnarliest poetry to the most depressing heartbroken shit I could think of.

I really wanna blame facebook because the app is a totally legal drug with bad side effects. The side effects include jealousy, hate, love, depression, psychological torture, and a sprinkle of “WE CONTROL YOUR LIFE.”

I’m serious.

facebook has turned me into a monster.

MANY OF US ARE CREATIONS OF FACEBOOK.

MY DEPRESSION STEMS FROM FACEBOOK.

i really wanna delete facebook but how else am i gonna get a chicks number or stay in contact.

Oh, I’ll also be damned if I have to be one of those boyfriends who has to look at a Snap story or like every Instagram picture because really, I’m not on those sites often. I’ve cut back on facebook but I’ve been a member for quite some time. It’s never really going to go away. 

I am surprised I didn’t get hooked to twitter because back in the G I used to tweet my ass off. I kept up the tweeting habit until I realized that twitter is listerally based on a social status. If my following count is one sided I’m not gonna fuck with it. The purpose was to interact and share shit, now its like high school but on the internet and I am once again lame. 

Damn internet. 

Going back to my originally subject, I need to lighten up. I’m really just a laid back guy who doesn’t say much so for me to take action through words in a way I have been doing for years is kind of bothering me. Come to think of it, I had to rebrand myself as a rapper and talk more of what I know instead of trying to copy my favorite rapper Ab – Soul.

(Side note, I wanted to be hella lyrical and deep thinking like Soulo but that’s just a small portion of me.)

Maybe that’s what I need to do with this site. Rebrand myself and write about the shit I think about when I’m stoned or the natural beauty of life. I’m going to think about this.

VERY … VERY . . hard.

~ keep it all smiles

2018 & Im blogging again.

I’ve been silent for a while.

Not much has been floating around my mind to get me to hop on here and talk. I would typically voice my opinions on certain stuff and rant about life but as of late I just haven’t been feeling it.

I also have noticed that I start off all my blog post like this when I haven’t been much of an active blogger. It’s literally just a bunch of blah blah blah. But you know, guess that’s how life goes huh?

Anywho a lot of my time has been spent producing beats. In the beginning of 2016 I sat down behind my MacBook, downloaded the lite version of Ableton Live and began to make beats. After hours of YouTube videos I can finally say I’m a producer. I’m only declaring this because one of my beats made it onto an album that my friend is going to release. What’s crazy is that the beat is from my batch of what I call “Early Stages.” I remember the night like it was yesterday.

We were smoking weed in Matt’s garage, I grabbed the laptop and started playing shit I made. My boy Marc who was hanging out that day instantly started to vibe and the rest is history. Since then I think my beats have gotten better, I judge that perception based on what my friends think and if their heads or nodding.

It’s just the beginning though, I’ll forever be a student of music.

~ keep it all smiles

Stick to it and just do it

I can never really stick with anything, kind of like this blog. I told myself that I would hop on here daily or at least monthly and make a post but it seems to have not happened. As of recent I spend my days on tumblr reblogging random shit that I find scrolling up on my timeline.

What a way to enjoy life eh?

So as an attempt to get away from the comforts of my room, I made a trip to Heine Brothers, the coffee shop where I just so happen to make cool ass memories at. The sun is setting and my coffee is scalding hot. Might I mention that it’s 82 outside? I was out skating earlier but my skate session was cut short due to some guy who works in one of the buildings at this business complex came out to practice his golf swing. The last time I was skating in that area I think I may have pissed him off by the popping off my loud board as I flipped my deck to land some gnarly shit. Anywho, in respect I left because I’m pretty sure he had a long day at work and just wanted to swing his golf club in silence.

Besides the shenanigans of my everyday life, I just dropped a new single on Soundcloud. You should check it out.

I’m signing off for now, my brain is drawing a blank.

~ Keep it all smiles

 

HOT CHILI!!!

This is a very good read, made me want to go ahead and order a bottle of her Chili sauce, haha. The reason why I am sharing this is becasue towards the end of the article when they say that the Chinese Government has been urging her to go public with the company, she has refused stating that an IPO is just a way of tricking people out of their money.

I recently just invested in stocks and growing up as a child, dreaming of investing and making millions in the stock market, it’s not what it may seem. You really got to keep track of what’s going on. It’s literally a gamble which in return seems like I’m getting tricked out of my money. I guess I’ll learn someday.

Chinese netizens have crowned Tao Huabi, a 70-year-old granny, the “hottest woman in China.” Tao Huabi an her pricey red Bentley. Aside from being a trending topic in China, Tao also happens to be the founder of Laoganma Special Flavour Foodstuffs Co., maker of the nation’s most popular chili sauce. Interest in her has grown…

via The “hottest woman in China” is a 70-year-old grandmother with a chili sauce empire — Quartz

Trump is gonna build a wall that will be broken like Berlin.

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Like the rest of the logical thinking Americans here in the US, I oppose the wall that President Trump wants to build. I’ve heard people say time and time again how much of a great idea this would be but honestly it makes no sense. Yes, people from mexico cross the border every day entering this country illegally but really, do you think a large wall is going to stop them from coming over? Plus did you folks not hear about how some of the wall will just be fence? So in essence, that amazing wall that this dumbass in office plans to build really isn’t going to stop or change anything.

What really rubs me the wrong way about Trumps “Wall” is the fact that he claims that Mexico will pay for it. … Now if that isn’t complete utter bullshit than I don’t know what is. That’s like Canada building a wall and telling us to pay for it. I bet y’all would get really pissed about that huh? Talk about a double standard.

Now for those of you that are cursing at your phone or computer screen, telling me to go to hell, that is fine. I accept the fact that you are blinded by a false dream that America will be great again, but to be honest, in order to be “Great Again,” you have to acknowledge that America isn’t in the best shape. You have to acknowledge that the version of America that you want isn’t coming back. You have to realize that Millennials and Generation Z will overthrow the old heads in office because the predicament that we are in right now isn’t going to be changed by some unqualified, fascist president who think that bringing warehouse work back to America is going to change the future.

As always…

~ Keep it all smiles

 

Hot Coffee

No matter how much coffee I drink and how many words I write, I still don’t get a caffeine fix and the Editors at Android Headlines are going to tell me I suck at writing. I’ve come a long way from those days. I’m a better man with more ambition, so I hope. Today has been another one of those days where I’m just burning time, not accomplishing much but a word count and a lot of facebook shares. If you ask me, my life is practically boring, at least when my friends aren’t around.

Seems to me I kinda live off of them but I don’t know. My only concern right now is how in the hell am I going to get home after work. I don’t wanna ask Eric nor do I want to ask anyone else because I feel like I’ve bummed to many rides. There’s no point anymore. I might as well just walk home. I’ve had to walk home before, I think it rained that night and I didn’t have my license yet so I would ride my bike to work. That specific night my dad dropped me off because the rain wouldn’t let up earlier in the night for me to bike to work. I asked my buddy Danny if I could get a ride home and he agreed but in the middle of the night he ended up going home early. So guess what I had to do?

Walking home wasn’t fun but shit, If I have to walk home tonight then it’s whatever, I don’t like asking people for stuff, it makes me feel less sufficient.

~ keep it all smiles

Unread facebook Post pt. 1

Originally Posted 12/23/16

Go out and appreciate life. People are so close minded to the joys that are here in arm’s reach. I don’t need this Google Pixel for entertainment when the world provides enough as is. Do what thou wilt and see how much farther you will go on this journey. I cannot stress enough how underappreciated our current state of mind, body, and soul are. The longer you steer your eyes towards the indefinite, you’ll lose hope and call for what may seem to be an escape goat.

My efforts of sharing my thoughts have been tainted by clueless souls who feel empowered by social media to cause judgement and blame.

Just remember, they ain’t me and I ain’t them.

YMF.

Peak Week

With super Saturday and Super Sunday behind us, we have finally made it to the home stretch with 4 days to go after tonight. This month alone sure has been a test of patience for many but more of a psychology game to me. For instance, instead of jumping into drama at work, I’ve manage to lay low and survey the scene as it is. People are weird and this job has taught me that more than ever!

Not everyone is who they claim to be. What you see on the outside of most are a facade that is clammered with multiple personalities and backward thinking. That statement is more of a common sense point, but a lot of people are too feeble minded to go to that extent. Did I mention everyone around me is young and that I damn near trained an entire posi? I’ve practically did more learning than working if you ask me.

At this point, I don’t have any complaints other than individuals (like my new hires) who act as if they don’t know what they’re doing or have devious plans up there sleeves. It’s annoying if you ask me.

Overall, looking past the treturous 12 day work week, 2016 is almost over. The worst year since… (*MIKE TYSON SAYINGI DON’T KNOW“*).

AS USUAL…

I’m signing off.

~ keep it all smiles

You’re Not invited to dinner

For those of you that may not know, I’m a half breed. I’m only using the term “Half Breed” becasue black people who are proud to be dark as night time typically throw that joke at me. Honestly, I don’t care becasue I know I got a better grade of hair than them. What makes my hair so incredible (besides the afro) is that I’m mixed with filipino. My mother is from overseas from a group of islands that gets hit every now and then with typhoons and all those other crazy sea storms.

Now in my opinion, I think Asian food is the best. Matter of fact, I think any food that isn’t made here in the United States is better. Growing up, I’ve had to eat whatever my mom cooks and about 5 minutes ago I just got done eating some noodles she made. They were delicious by the way. The food my mom makes is wonderful and people like my dad’s side of the family drool over it, especially her eggrolls. Now my mom isn’t a chef, she’s just a woman from the Philippines who makes food she grew up around. Being that it’s considered “exotic” for the lack of a better term, people automatically assume that she is a great cook.

It’s always after I reveal to someone that I’m mixed with Filipino, I get the, “Can she cook?” question. Of course I reply with a HELL YEAH and whoever I’m speaking to tells me they’re coming to my house. As usual here I am trying to figure out why people ALWAYS got to say that. YES my mother makes great asian food but that certainly does not mean you’re invited to my house for dinner. You better stay home and eat your pork chops drenched in BBQ sauce or some of that unseasoned fried chicken that (Joe) pulled out the oven. While y’all do that, I’m gonna eat this boiled fish, with rice and noodles.

~ Keep it all smiles

v a p i n g

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As I watch the white dots slowly stack up and fall back down on the front of my mod, I question how safe it really is to vape… Okay not really, the juices they sell at the shop I go to are too good to pass up. I remember not to long ago my buddy Eric told me that even though he’s nearly winged himself off of those damn cancer sticks, he still wants to vape.

Personally I have nothing against what he’s saying other than the fact that he must want to continue vaping just to produce smoke like the rest of the millennials with a metal cylinder between their lips. For me, vaping was an escape from the toxic chemicals cigarettes offered. Since I quit, I can skateboard longer, rap without becoming winded, and feel a hella whole lot better. Not to mention that I haven’t had hayfever from allergies in a while.

The only reason why this topic has become a post on my site is becasue I saw a picture of a dude on his iPhone with a vape in his mouth. The image alone made me want to make fun of the hipster like picture being that the dude had on some boat shoes. When I look at vaping as a whole, it’s become a weird subculture that has taken over the minds of young people who want to be cool and wear clothes that are too tight and too big. I literally thought vaping was just for people who wanted to quit cigarettes, but I see and meet people who got into vaping because they wanted to blow huge smoke clouds and taste the joyous flavors.

In other words, the little kids I see at the skatepark, the grown ass men I see with man buns, and the weirdos who travel the country to enter in vaping events are just plain ol’ pussies in my eyes. I’m over here trying to fight the urge for a cigarette and these fools are blowing clouds because it “looks cool.” Get the fuck out of here with that shit.

I remember a couple of weeks ago this dude that works in the area right next to mine at work came in with a rose gold kanger vape. he was proudly puffing on it talking about the flavor he’s smoking and how much he paid for everything. I later ran into him and ask him how long he has been vaping just to see what this guy’s true intentions were. He proceeded to tell me that he used to vape a year ago and recently got the urge to vape again… Yes you read that right he “recently got the urge.” What kind of shit is that?! Please explain to me that logic behind this man’s statement?!

*sigh*

It makes me mad thinking about it but oh well.

~ Keep it all smiles