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Mack once told me that we’re all late bloomers. The reason why we haven’t gotten to where we want to be is because we aren’t ready yet or some shit. I can’t really remember what he said but when I think back on that little statement it gives me just a little hope. A little hope that its not too late for me to make major changes in my life so I can attain my goals that I am seeking to achieve in an environment that’s peaceful.

Mack once joked about me not having an automobile. Between me and him he was the first one to get a car. He bought an old Malibu from some mexican for $1,000 dollars. That thing gave him hella problems but he was able to get around town and do the things he wanted to. Eventually I saved up enough to get my own whip and now I feel the freedom he feels. That was 6 years ago.

Mack once told me that throwing something in the microwave isn’t cooking. I would laugh and just go on about my business while we played video games together. The next day when I would get on social media I would see him posting videos onto his story whipping up fried chicken and some green beans. Today I dabble in the kitchen more experimenting with different dishes. I mainly just see what I can do with chicken. I’m going to try to whip up something more difficult and make an artsy looking plate.

Mack lives alone. He has an apartment and pays his own bills. Going back over all the things Mack has said to me, he wouldn’t put it in a nice way. It would sometimes be degrading and lowkey feel like he was making fun of me. Looking at it now thats just how he keeps it real with people. He just wanted to see his homie grow.

I have a good job and make decent money. Since being promoted back in 2024 i’ve been saving up to buy a house. I live with my parents and as i’ve said in my songs before, its not the most attractive feature about me. I’m 32 and work with my dad on the weekends which is another thing Mack still makes fun of me for. No matter how hard to try to explain that situation to people they just don’t get it. Not even you.

I’m going to move out soon. I’ve been looking at apartments so I can have some peace of mind while not having to tip toe around my parents. I just want to have the freedom to record music without having to take all my equipment to the garage because my parents are trying to sleep. I’ve spent many cold winters in my fathers garage recording and tbh if it weren’t for that garage I wouldn’t be where I am today.

Part of this change is from my desire to be independent and the betterment of myself. I want to meditate, workout, draw, game, record, and so many other things in peace. Another part is that the woman that I love has highlighted all my questionable qualities and it made me realize that maybe I do need to do a little more.

I’ve been slowly moving my stuff into a storage unit and going through my belongings, throwing stuff out and giving stuff away. This has been going on for a month now.

I have an apartment tour scheduled.

I’m still looking for a house though.

I don’t speak about this because I want it to be a surprise. Luckily none of my friends read this goofy blog so they won’t know. Hell my family doesn’t even know I write shit on the internet for strangers like you to read. This is my online diary and I hope you all enjoy it.

~keep it all smiles