i guess so

I’m one shy fellow. I sometimes wish I wasn’t because I’d like to persue a few relationships but my shyness destroys everything. Kind of like when Michael Jackson would be on live TV getting interviewed, you could just tell that he was nervous.

Thats me.

I wander through life wishing she could be in my Cadillac Dreams but unfortunately I’m just not strong willed enough to do anything. So instead I awkwardly stare from the distance as the rush of boxes pass. My life is a strange world. The internet serves to reject me while creating memes out of the weak ones.

I guess it’s just another part of life.

~ Keep it all smiles

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The last time rain fell from the sky I was in a hospital staring out of the family room of which was occupied by the loved ones of my friend Skittles. The mood seemed to change from mere happiness to the dreadful feeling of worry as we waited outside of the doors to see my friend. We were warned before we entered the room but were also given that little bit of hope that everything was going to work out in the end.

It’s Friday and rain has fallen from the sky again. The wake started at 3PM and I still have yet to make my way to the church. To be honest I’m scared. I’m scared to see him laying their quiet, not saying a word. Skittles was known for a loudmouth and goofy jokes, so seeing him not do neither is scary. It literally sets everything in stone that he is gone, forever.

I still feel like shit for not stopping to say Hi to him when I drove past him a month or so back. I saw him in someone’s front yard being goofy as usual. It hurts.

 

Hip Hop Old Heads

People that continuously hate on Future, lil Yachty, 21 Savage, and so on need to stop being closed minded. I’m not a fan of these artist but I appreciate their work and give them a listen here and there. What you have to realize is that these artist speak for our generation. Guess what our generation is doing? Drinking lean, smoking weed, doing drugs and going to hardcore rave parties. These rappers are the offspring of who we are as millennials.

Now of course old heads are going to say that they “aren’t real MC’s” or “Their music is garbage,” but listen to yourself! How can you have hate, or a strong dislike against an artist who succeeded with the same given opportunities that most of us have? Music changes with each generation, it won’t be the same. That “Golden Age” of hip hop that all those old heads are yearning for is over. Kendrick and J. Cole aren’t bringing back hip-hop, they’re creating new ways of sharing stories. Future and Yachty aren’t destroying hip-hop, they’re having fun.

As an artist, I believe in the freedom of speech and the freedom to create what you like. Nobody stood up in front of the entire Hip-Hop/Rap Industry in the 1990’s and said “This is how our music will sound like and it will be like this for the rest of its existence.” That’s not how it works! Let us create our music, let Yachty sing terribly over Auto-Tune, and let Desiigner use his copy paste methods. It’s all music, it’s all art, appreciate it.

Well… uh

I’m supposed to be writing everyday on this blog. Now here I am a month or so later finally making a post about how shit is going in my life. If I could describe it with the size of a building, we can just compare it to something out in Dubai.

If reading that made you confused than that’s good becasue my head is in the exact same realm as yours.

I guess I can’t write

The editor from that bullshit website I used to write for told me that my writing style didn’t fit with the rest of their poorly staffed team. I consider myself to be a great writer and that trolls on the internet need to check themselves before that get a diss track thrown at them out of nowhere.

Anyways, I wrote an article for engadgets Public Access page and and shared the damn thing on reddit. Probably not the best idea considering that somebody got in the comments and said that my article was poorly written. Another protruding guest came in and said that I wrote it on the buss.

but it doesn’t matter, i wish for them to suffer until they apreciate what i write.

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I would first off like to let everyone know that today will be a good day so don’t worry about the rain!

Now, lets take you guys on a journey into my mind this morning. Yes I fly a kite way out there and I thought a shower would kill it but I guess not. Anyways; I just noticed that I use that word a lot when I make blogpost. I really need to stop that.

Theres more to life than what we see correct? If you agree upon that staement then proceed forward with caution becasue this is about to be a scary ride. Now if you are at your computer right now I want you to stop completely what you are doing. Sit there still, breathing very slowly. While doing this, begin to survey the area around you and feel the presence of everything that is exsistance!

Did you feel it?

What I was trying to make you do is try and experience realtiy. Now what I mean by that is that I am trying to allow you to realize reality. According to the Oxford Dictionary, Reality means: The quality of being real, something real and not imaginary, and life and the world as the really are. Another way you can explain this is the existance of everything conceputal and nonconceptual.

When I came across thsi information, I took a minute to realize everything around me the existance of it. With our everyday lives taken up buy working a job or going to school, we never really have the time to even think about something like that.

If all of this is confusing to you than I apologize, this nothing more than of me just ranting about insidious thoughts that float around my brain. Or maybe we can look at this as some type of … yeah I don’t know. Just try not to take me too seriously becasue that never works in life.

~ Keep it all smiles

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Silence fills the air.

I grabbed my TV dinner out of the microwave. Another successful night in the books and now it is time to enjoy the freedoms that life has to offer, but only for a second. At least thats what the time between work and school feels like. Its always been like this; for some years now. I don’t feel nothing new, its all just the same. Life seems to come and go around the same circle its been on and I haven’t really changed it.

Sure I’ve done some cool things but I feel like there is more out here for me to achieve but I’m being held back. Trying to figure out whats holding me back is the question. I can’t say its really a constant battle of trying to find myself but I don’t know.

This TV dinner isn’t all that I expected, its pretty nasty.

Anyways, minus the fact that I use the word Anyways for multiple paragraphs though out my blog, I think I understand.

~ Keep it all smiles

i promise i;m not highh

Alright guys we gotta do this fast!

I don’t do this often but… the lights are bright and I am currently on another level!!! I got the bright lights with the glorious looking keys and black bands that prove existence!

Can’t you see? We got more perception than you think. Theres more that needs to be met with eyes and we can actually find this. We have the power and knowledge that excel us in a way that will create brilliance! For some people this may seem like a very confusing and enticing calling, but this needs to be rather taken on serious terms.

There isn’t that much left, the time is here and now. The now can never be re-created so there is only one shot that can destroy the evils that lie within! You cannot desecrate the needy and lend to the poor. Thats more of analogy that was never thought of. Probably in the midst of the cannibals hands, the ties between corn shells will never be made. You got to think, its all fun and games until someone gets hurt.

IM OUT!

ps. Yo I’m sorry that you  had to read all of that rubbish. I do not take back anything I said so you can suck it! haha! Let them read this one and see if that face don’t change!

~ Keep it all smiles