Its a little bit after 3AM and here I am quietly typing away my thoughts on a computer that at one point, I would have never dreamed of owning. Its the little things in life that we take for granted though. If I didn’t have this fancy computer I probably would have had a Chromebook or something. Pretty much a little rig that can’t do anything but let me type on it. With my current station, I can create music, edit photos, and so much more awesome stuff!
Thats all besides the point. The point that I am trying to mention is my place in life. I often question it and never give myself an answer because I feel like its diabolical. Its kind of scary to think but I always push that thought off to the side. A lot of times when the topic does pop up is when I’m on top of a roof cleaning a hood with my dad. Its not the best job in the world but its all the old man knows how to do.
I feel and see a lot of lacking in my life. There isn’t a lot there but a bunch of emptiness and cold chilling air that occasionally creeps up your spine. Its all too surreal but like I said earlier, I try not to think about it and go on about my day.
It still bothers me though. I want to know more but I know that knowing will kill me. I still can’t let a small reason stop me as I journey into the mist. It some times makes me sick to my stomach but in the end I always feel better. Kind of like when you throw up. haha!
ill find it soon
~ Keep it all smiles
I read a blog post this morning that Natalie Cole, the daughter of Nat King Cole, passed away the other day. She was only 65. I never really listened to her music but it shocked me because she was one of those people who’s names are automatically placed in your head because their famous. The article reminded me of the time that Michael Jackson passed away. I just remember sitting in my room after popping in his Dangerous album and listening to a man who once was alive. Its a chilling feelings. I noticed something that day though.
I noticed that everyone else in their own type of remembrance was listening to Michael Jackson. It wasn’t that long after that every one was listening to him and it made me wonder what would have happened if he didn’t pass. Would people listen to his music? Would they have bought the collectors edition of his albums or spent all that money to watch “This is it” in theaters? Just a week before he moved on to the next life you couldn’t find anyone jamming to Billie Jean unless they were a Michael Jackson fan.
Hows does this tie in to Natalie’s Death? Well its an example (to me at least) of how we tend to take people for granted. You can’t always tell yourself, “Oh I’ll see Billy tomorrow.” Billy may not be here tomorrow so you should spend time with him now. This life is a very unpredictable as we all know and ever since High School, I’ve seen a lot of people die. Some of them I have never talked to, one of them I kind of knew. I’ve been out of High School for 3 years now so that shows you how unpredictable life can turn out to be.
So the moral of this story is…
Don’t take people for granted. Make the effort to go see someone that way if they do move away, pass away, or anything, you won’t have that shitty little feeling sitting on your chest. Anyways, Rest in Peace to Natalie King Cole.
~ Keep it all smiles