The Beginning of the End

Well its official, I am now a High school graduate of Southern High School. The class of 2012 is the 61’st class to graduate under our new principle Mr. Hibbert. Its been a long 4 years…but a long 12, 13 if ya’ throw in head start. It feels like I have been in school forever. Basically my whole life, but now…now I’m a free man about to do my thing in life.

I still remember the first day of school when my dad walked me in and showed me to the teachers. I started to cry when he walked away. I still remember the first day of middle school, my neighbor “Yari” and I walked in and approached our asshole of a math teacher asking if this is the right team. I also still remember the first day of high school, my homie Dakotah and I rolled up in Southern amazed by all of the other students trying to make our way through the crowded halls. It feels like this all happened yesterday but now look at me, all grown and out of school.

I’m still stunned that I even got to this point just for the simple fact that I cruised my whole senior year just sitting in class writing random crap and get good grades. I had a slight feeling I wasn’t gonna make it but I pulled through last minute and got my sh*t together. Now here I am with a diploma with my name on it and a cap and gown hanging up in my room. What a wonderful feeling that is.

Now that I am done with my free education, its time to move on up to my post secondary education and get my move on in life. I’m still going to skate, draw, and do all the other crap I enjoy doing in life and hope for the best.

To end this post I would like to quote a favorite hip-hop artist of mine.

“They say that life is what you make it, so what you been creating on yo’ free time” – Big K.R.I.T.

This ends my May Post…Check out what I got going on in the next few weeks. I’m gonna get a “Real World” series going. Holla!

PS. Shout out the Class of 2012!

The Issue

So latley a lot has been going through my head that I seemed to have killed away and have thrown away in my virtual memory trash can. All yesterday I was trippen so bad, later on when I got to the crib and did a little snoopin everything dropped and like I said, it just fatally died. It wasnt really nothing, I just made it seem like a big deal in my head and from a few influences around me, I had this little vision going on that kept replaying over and over agin in my head until I couldn’t take it anymore. What did I do you may ask? Nothing of course becasue once it came to that point I pushed it out of sight and thought about what really mattered and why I am in the predicament I am in today.

People call me a lot of stuff but as Mr. Gary always said to the crazy white girl on the bus “I got thick skin, nothing really gets through to me”. I never really care about what the other low down, got no life, broke as a joke, still living with mama idiots got to say because I keep on reasurring my self that I will be better then them and do bigger and better things then work at Rally’s for the rest of my life in the drive thru lane. They do make me mad at times to the point of me thinking about bashing their hallow heads into a brick wall until it breaks. I haven’t gotten to that point yet so don’t push me.

Its times like that when I look around for a certain someone other then my buddies to go talk to and chill with. It sounds a bit better and a lot more normal. I see it as also companionship and trust, that person always being there for you no matter what.

Seeing me though, I may look like your average nerd wearing the small clothes and not talking to no one. Well you got me all fu** up. Even though you can be someone else but don’t show it dosent mean your that person which I want to be, but that problem that is lurking around the corner striking fear into me always comes to end my shot.

I’ve put lots of thought into it, I dug through all my drafts to pull this one out to finish up what I have been thinking. Something is different now becasue I found a new path of where I can meet up with em. Just by having a simple conversation about pop culture led me to the route which I plan on taking and utilizing from now on. Maybe there is still a chance for me….maybe. I got the rest of the year, time to take action I thought. Although it did make me happy to see the smiling face, at least that is what I in visioned but eh, its ok to dream right? I know I’m a confusing person who can talk as deep as Huey Freeman but I’m a person on a search with no map and no help but my self.

Its just me.

 

My Life

Some people in life are just obstacles that want you to fail or want you to follow them in there direction. I have my own path and I plan on to succeed at it. I’m not going to sit back and talk about what could have happened, I’m going to make it happen whether you like it or not. They say my dad talks crazy but everything he has told me he has backed up with all the proof he can show or have me read. As of right now the society is against what I do. Skateboarding is my thing and I’m following the saying, “Skate Or Die”. It may sound stupid to you but if you were a skateboarder you would feel the same way about it. People just don’t understand skaters and wish we can stop skating and pretty our selves up, thats not going to happen. You gotta be smoking an ounce of weed to tell me something like that.

Another thing that gets me is that everyone in my family thinks my dad is a fool but there wrong. They think he is talking crazy. My dad is an entrepreneur and has 2 businesses. One is kitchen Exhaust cleaning and the other one which he is about to start up is in carpet cleaning. He is the only person in my life who I have seen go out and make his own money from his very own business while everyone else is sitting at home waiting on a check from there job.

I hate it when my cousin tries to talk to me about how I should get a job, I think I should but that basically means I might have to stop skateboarding. Once I start working my life will be gone. I’ll wake up, go to work and come home tired and want to rest. Plus I’m in school so if I get a job I’ll have to go to school, come home and go to work, once I get back It’ll be late and I’ll have to do my home work and go to bed. No fuck that. I’ve come this far in skateboarding now people want me to quit!? No, I’m going to keep pushing till’ I can’t no more. To some people right now I sound crazy but like I said above if you were a skateboarder you would think the same way.

Posers+Fakes=FAIL

Whats the point of being a poser? Who ever your trying to impress will eventually find out that your fake. So why try when you already know the end result. Talk about an Epic Fail. ALL POSERS ARE EPIC FAILS!!!! EPIC!!! I’m serious I see a lot of posers at my school. They think there the coldest person at what the “Do” but there not. Somebody outta punch them in the neck for trying. There is no point, oh and you know one other thing I hate. People who say they can play any sport but when it comes time for them to play and they go out there, they suck! This white boy who goes to my school does all that talk. He talks about how he’ll run you over in football and cross you in basketball……the boy got crossed by a teacher in the 8th grade. Plus the teacher was crap at basketball to yet still crossed this boy. I swear he just gets on my nerves all ways talking and using the same jokes EVERY SINGLE DAY! I think I’m just gonna punch him in the neck for just being so stupid.

First Week Of School

So on Tuesday the 17th was the first day of school in Jefferson county. We came back to the same thing thinking it was going to be a little different from last year. At least it felt the same to me. The first day went well, exploding monster cans and finally getting to talk to some of my friends that I haven’t seen all summer. The first week went by smooth and without any troubles for real. At least  not any major troubles. Its only the beginning, lets see what Southern High has in store for us.

Real Life

I still find it kind of hard to believe that I’m almost out of school. It seems like it was just yesterday that I was in head start.  now I am 2 years away from leaving high school and entering the real world I just don’t know what to do with my self. Its kind of weird, exciting and a bit nervous because I’m only 16 and haven’t figured out what to do with my life yet. My family is trying there hardest to get me to think but just like any old teenager I rebel against them and don’t listen to a word that they got to say. I have been thinking for the longest though on what to do in my life. I have many goals that I would like to peruse but I haven’t taken the initial plan to go and do it. Well except for one but I don’t feel like going into to much detail on that matter. Don’t be trippen and think that its some weird job that I have in plan but no, when everything falls into plan you’ll see. I guess, thats if you pay any attention to what I post up for these people to see.

In school though they do come to us a lot and talk to us about college and stuff but it seem to be over whelming and time consuming to sit down and pick a college and how your gonna pay to get in. I don’t really see the need for college. Its only for those people who want to work in a big office tower and get told what to do by this big fat man who site behind his desk all day eating doughnuts, or is that was police officers do? Well it dosent matter, its some stuck up back stabbing boss. Then on top of that your stuck in a cubical surrounded by more back stabbing employees who suck up to there boss and will do anything to annihilate you and get you fired. Sounds bad right? It is. My view on life is different from most peoples because I see things differently then others do. Its like someone is looking at an apple and when I walk up I see an orange. I think I gave a bad example, how about you come up with one and I keep talking.

Anyways it seem like I have so many ideas and opportunities at hand but don’t take any action. 2 years of high school and where have I gone, no where. Most teens my age got a job. I got a part time job with my dad. Low pay ain’t kickin it in my world.

As I go on and on I find it useless that I keep going about this problem and think I should stop here. Unless you can comment on this post and give me a heads up on what I should do, feel free. Until then, I’ll be waiting on that post.