Act. 2

Dear …

Now what I quite don’t understand is how you can be so devious, so our right low, and sooo evil to possibly eeeven try to pull something like that off. I mean I look around and creep on some stats and pro’s and ya know what I have come to assume? That something is up that I don’t know about….but in reality, I do.

Moving on to what I want to say, why is it that everytime something is posted by this anonymous person it is removed 5 to 10 minutes later as if it was not there. Like no one saw it, not knowing the man with the golden eye caught it before it was thown away.

There’s nothing you can hide that social media can give to me. I have the power to shut you down and put you on blast to the point that you WILL truly hate me. Consider me as the friend with the ambition to ruin a very distastful relationship that is as bland as a tomato sandwich….

Making my call and to prove a fact that is being horribly hidden yet known to the world like our economic struggle, it seems to me that the cost of love is very cheap and can be easliy bought, then sold for a price of nothing. With that being said my suspicion will only go away unless I am being told the straight truth with you right there before me crying and swearing that it is all a misunderstanding.

P.S. Keep in mind that I will out do and persue something I have being trying for what seems a decade. In the end if I win…then its all mine. If I lose…I will do what you say will be the most devestating thing that I can ever do. No this is not a threat or some way to change you mind, but a message to show how a warm loving heart…can become as cold as ice.

Sincerely

Angry Black Man

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The Issue

So latley a lot has been going through my head that I seemed to have killed away and have thrown away in my virtual memory trash can. All yesterday I was trippen so bad, later on when I got to the crib and did a little snoopin everything dropped and like I said, it just fatally died. It wasnt really nothing, I just made it seem like a big deal in my head and from a few influences around me, I had this little vision going on that kept replaying over and over agin in my head until I couldn’t take it anymore. What did I do you may ask? Nothing of course becasue once it came to that point I pushed it out of sight and thought about what really mattered and why I am in the predicament I am in today.

People call me a lot of stuff but as Mr. Gary always said to the crazy white girl on the bus “I got thick skin, nothing really gets through to me”. I never really care about what the other low down, got no life, broke as a joke, still living with mama idiots got to say because I keep on reasurring my self that I will be better then them and do bigger and better things then work at Rally’s for the rest of my life in the drive thru lane. They do make me mad at times to the point of me thinking about bashing their hallow heads into a brick wall until it breaks. I haven’t gotten to that point yet so don’t push me.

Its times like that when I look around for a certain someone other then my buddies to go talk to and chill with. It sounds a bit better and a lot more normal. I see it as also companionship and trust, that person always being there for you no matter what.

Seeing me though, I may look like your average nerd wearing the small clothes and not talking to no one. Well you got me all fu** up. Even though you can be someone else but don’t show it dosent mean your that person which I want to be, but that problem that is lurking around the corner striking fear into me always comes to end my shot.

I’ve put lots of thought into it, I dug through all my drafts to pull this one out to finish up what I have been thinking. Something is different now becasue I found a new path of where I can meet up with em. Just by having a simple conversation about pop culture led me to the route which I plan on taking and utilizing from now on. Maybe there is still a chance for me….maybe. I got the rest of the year, time to take action I thought. Although it did make me happy to see the smiling face, at least that is what I in visioned but eh, its ok to dream right? I know I’m a confusing person who can talk as deep as Huey Freeman but I’m a person on a search with no map and no help but my self.

Its just me.

 

1.11.11

Look at the title, then look at your calender, then your phone. Then anything else with the numbers, 1.11.11. Thats a nice date right? RIGHT! All through out 2011 there will be a bunch of 1’s going on. Well at least I think so. I think there may be like 1 or 2 1’s going on but that will be about it. So have an nice 1.11.11 and for people who missed this day, it wasn’t much of nothing. Just a day with a bunch of ones in the date. PEACE!

Halloween In 2 Days

Its getting close to that one day in October when people dress up and make a fool out of them selves. Yeah I’m talking about halloween. Why do I say making a fool out of them selves? Because they are! If walking down the street dress up as a possessed clown isn’t stupid then I don’t know what is. Halloween is fun tho, the best part about it is that you get FREE CANDY! Who’s idea was this anyway? Like really, lets go dress up like ghost and knock on doors requesting for candy. It sounds dumb but when your 6 years old its the coolest thing ever!

Do you remember in Elementary School when the day after Halloween kids would come to school with all there candy and talk about how much they got? They still do that crap in high school. I walk in and see a bunch of squares with bags of candy. Arn’t you like 17? I don;t plan on trick or treating this year being that I am to old. This year my plan is to go to Family Dollar or Walmart and buy me a bag of candy that cost $8.00. Its has just as much candy that I would have collected any year so might as well.

You know you can’t be trusting people these days. People putting needles in apples and crap and poising the foods. When you go and trick or treat your basically putting your life in the hands of the people who are giving you the candy because you don’t know what they did to it. Thats why when you go trick or treating you got to go to those highly respected neighborhoods where you know they ain’t sticking the candy down there pants an re-wrapping it…yeah.

So this is my post for Halloween, I might come back on here and make a post on Halloween Day about something but I’m not sure. Just be watching.

Update your status

Its everywhere! No matter what website you sign on to now they have added the feature that everyone loves and uses on facebook and twitter every day! The status update or the micro blog. The things that people do every time they log on to there facebook or get on twitter. It seems to be popping up everywhere! One website that I didn’t ecpect it to be on was IMVU, a graphical instant messaging client created by IMVU Inc. I was stunned to see it there, they call it “pulse”. Now I’m just waiting for youtube to get one. It seems like the new thing that everyone loves to do. I love to do it! Just look at the side of my blog and you will see my status updates. I’m not made at it kind of annoyed on how every site wants to do it. Why can’t they sit down and come up with something that will beat there competitor instead of joining with them. I don’t, I own a very un-successful blog and trippen over the fact of status updates.  Comment your opinion.

First Week Of School

So on Tuesday the 17th was the first day of school in Jefferson county. We came back to the same thing thinking it was going to be a little different from last year. At least it felt the same to me. The first day went well, exploding monster cans and finally getting to talk to some of my friends that I haven’t seen all summer. The first week went by smooth and without any troubles for real. At least  not any major troubles. Its only the beginning, lets see what Southern High has in store for us.

Real Life

I still find it kind of hard to believe that I’m almost out of school. It seems like it was just yesterday that I was in head start.  now I am 2 years away from leaving high school and entering the real world I just don’t know what to do with my self. Its kind of weird, exciting and a bit nervous because I’m only 16 and haven’t figured out what to do with my life yet. My family is trying there hardest to get me to think but just like any old teenager I rebel against them and don’t listen to a word that they got to say. I have been thinking for the longest though on what to do in my life. I have many goals that I would like to peruse but I haven’t taken the initial plan to go and do it. Well except for one but I don’t feel like going into to much detail on that matter. Don’t be trippen and think that its some weird job that I have in plan but no, when everything falls into plan you’ll see. I guess, thats if you pay any attention to what I post up for these people to see.

In school though they do come to us a lot and talk to us about college and stuff but it seem to be over whelming and time consuming to sit down and pick a college and how your gonna pay to get in. I don’t really see the need for college. Its only for those people who want to work in a big office tower and get told what to do by this big fat man who site behind his desk all day eating doughnuts, or is that was police officers do? Well it dosent matter, its some stuck up back stabbing boss. Then on top of that your stuck in a cubical surrounded by more back stabbing employees who suck up to there boss and will do anything to annihilate you and get you fired. Sounds bad right? It is. My view on life is different from most peoples because I see things differently then others do. Its like someone is looking at an apple and when I walk up I see an orange. I think I gave a bad example, how about you come up with one and I keep talking.

Anyways it seem like I have so many ideas and opportunities at hand but don’t take any action. 2 years of high school and where have I gone, no where. Most teens my age got a job. I got a part time job with my dad. Low pay ain’t kickin it in my world.

As I go on and on I find it useless that I keep going about this problem and think I should stop here. Unless you can comment on this post and give me a heads up on what I should do, feel free. Until then, I’ll be waiting on that post.

The past, the present, and the future

If you wish to change the past then you are going to alter your future. Things that happen to you in life happen for a reason. Whether they are good or bad. Just think if you would have never went to the store that evening to pick up some milk, would you have ever met your wife? Exactly! Even if the situation is bad, good always finds its way through.

So if you have always had it implanted in your mind that you want to change the past then you should take it out because if you could change time and changed one little thing, then everything is going to be changed and you my not like it.

Another reason things happen in life that may seem bad is that you don’t repeat history. Why do you think we learn it? Its so that when it comes to a time similar to an event that happened in your past that you did not like you remember what you did wrong and do it right or what ever came your way that was bad, you avoided it. By that, you do not repeat the past and learn from your mistakes. So be glad of what you have here before you and that what happened in the past happened, for good or the bad.

Hello Cruel World!

I got tired of the last 10 blogs I made so I decided to make a new one with a better name and something that didn’t sound stupid. Exploding Rock just sounded better and then BAM! It came into being after just a few clicks and some words I had to type in. Maybe some photo you clicked on directed you here, I don’t know and I really don’t care. JUST READ MY STUFF! No but really this is the first of many post that you will see my blog viewers. You will soon be typing in exploding rock dot wordpress dot com to see what kind of whacked out stuff I have to say and trust me, there will be a lot of crap on here probably worth reading. Like everyone on this earth my life is different and you will get something to read like no other when you come here. But let me stop here because now that I think of it, nobody really ever reads the first blog post, well at least I don’t so I’m gonna leave you guy’s hanging and will see you later today when I got something to write about.