Guess what guys? The start of the semester has started and I have made the decision to not waste anymore time in a place that was draining life out of me. Now of course you have those people out in the world that are going to say, “You’re supposed to let college drain the life out of you so you can get a better education and a better job.” Well excuse me Mr. fucking retard, you can go ahead and waste your time, at least you can enjoy it. School isn’t for me. I legit sat down in grade school and day dreamed a majority of the time. Why am I gonna go to college to do more day dreaming when I can do it comfortably here at my house?
All I’m saying is, follow your heart and don’t do things that reflect the people around you. If you got friends going to school and you are too and you have tried effortlessly to pass and you just couldn’t, then maybe school isn’t right for you.
~ Keep it all smiles
As much as I bitch and moan about college on the internet, you’d probably think that I just gave up on the whole thing and quit. But I haven’t. I’ve been in school for damn year 4 years and haven’t really gotten anywhere but to College Algebra (Which I totally should be studying for). There are many reasons of why I couldn’t have just quit but all of them would just be rubbish.
The real reason why I haven’t quit college is becasue of what a group of old black guys who were paving our driveway back in 2010. I was in highschool, I think it was my sophomore year too, and I had just got home from school when I seen all these old black dudes laying asphalt in my driveway. I quickly ran into the house to drop my stuff and eagerly ran back out to watch them assemble my new driveway.
*As a side note, don’t get some old black guys from your ghetto neighborhood to lay new asphalt in your driveway. Our someone new driveway is trashed and falling apart, but hey, they tried.*
As they made their way from the garage to the patio door, I remember looking at them as they wiped sweat off their foreheads from the extreme heat the asphalt gave off. Tired and dirty, they kept moving, throwing and flattening asphalt. As I stood by the patio door, I one of the old guys looked up and me and said, “Stay in school, go to college, you don’t want to do this.” Now considering the fact that I possibly recall seeing him at the liquor store, I took his word of advice. Deep down this man probably wishes that he would have done something better with his life instead of waste it looking for fun inside of a bottle. It was either or he just saw me as a kid and figured he would say some adult stuff.
Till this day those words from that old black guy still linger in my head. Even when I am in class trying to figure out what the fuck a Quadratic Equation is supposed to do, I hear his faint grumbles.
Hey guys, remember all that ranting and raving that I did the other day dissing my college? Well its all good now. I went up there today and met with an advisor who put me into another college algebra class. For a second I thought I wasn’t going to be able to go to school this semester but I really want to get a degree in Journalism so I gotta do what I gotta do!
My class is Tuesday’s and Thursday’s. I’m pretty sure I was supposed to go today but I don’t have a book or know what I am supposed to bring to class. I’ll just show up Thursday so my new teadcher can give me the low down.
Anyways, have a good day guys!
~ Keep it all smiles
I usually don’t tell people where I am academically in college since I fucked around to much. I’m only just a freshmen. Considered that is. I’ve been in school for 4 years and haven’t gotten anywhere. I feel like a turd but at the same time, where I am in school doesn’t matter to me. Finishing college isn’t even a goal. I’m not even sure why I’m still in the shit. I feel like I’m wasting my time trying to do math equations in a remedial class. The system sucks. I honestly want to give a personal fuck you to college because it’s just been a waste of my time.
Oh of course people love school. Those same people will look at me and call me a failure and tell me that I’m going to be stuck at UPS for the rest of my life. But how? Because I haven’t finished college to get my degree so I can go work for someone? That’s not why I’m living. I didn’t come into this world so I can become a slave to someone else’s company. My father raised me to never work for somebody else but to work for myself. I want to offer the service, not be the person doing the work.
I know what your thinking. “You need a college degree!” Yeah go to Steve Jobs’ grave and tell him Apple would’ve been better if he finished college. Tell Bill Gates that he shouldn’t have started Microsoft without finishing school.
Don’t get me wrong, college is a great outlet to meet people and to help build long lasting relationships. But in the end, joining a fraternity or sorority to get the connect for a good job down the road ain’t me. I know, everyone doesn’t join those types of organizations but school has done nothing but waste my time. You don’t need something people want you to have. See that key word? Want.
Let that sink in.
So lately as I bash college more and more, I’ve had two people preach to me about the importance of college. The first was my new fulltime supervisor at work who acts as if he drank an entire pot of coffee before coming in. He stressed to me how much he wants nothing more than to see all of us leave UPS with a piece of paper (referring to a degree of course) because it holds that much value. I couldn’t help but tell myself that while he’s telling me all of this, that fancy Apple Watch he kept glancing at was from a company founded by a college dropout.
As the fine young gentleman I am, I politely listened and pondered later what he told me. I’ve convinced myself college isn’t for me. Yes the college life is cool but having to go through the course’s is what I hate. I know I know, its like that for everyone but in my situation I feel that this isn’t for me. I’m going to put my mind and body through all of this strenuous effort to get a degree that will only help me get my “pinky toe” into the door as my buddy Daimont would say.
The more I ponder my presents in post secondary education, the more I get the “College Talk.” Just today as my mother and I were paying for the brand new tires on our car, the lead mechanic gave me a similar speech about college. I don’t know if its just me but I think theres some force that is trying to keep me in college. I don’t understand why because I have such radical views towards college.
I haven’t quit yet and I’m digging the perks of being student. But going back to my College discussion, I honestly think the only way to make it in life is if you start a business. Now I know, the first thought that comes to mind is that you need to go to school. Yes that is an option but what most people don’t realize is that there are seminars and classes nation wide that is similar to college course’s. You’ll be out of $800 but in the long run you will be able to obtain the knowledge needed to run and operate a business.
Whatever it is I’m trying to do, I need to figure it out quick because I am 21 and I’ll be 30 before we all know it.
Post secondary education is a way the government exploits families by telling them that if you go to school you can get a better job and get a piece of the American pie. What they don’t tell you is that its all lies and they just want you’re money. How sad right?
Did I mention that when you go to college you are just learning one thing (unless you double major) that prepares you for a job? A job where you work for someone and you are not the boss. See I told someone at work about this and they looked at me as if I was crazy and said that you need college to live a better life.
Well… yes and no. See I was fortunate enough to grow up in a household with a father that has an entrepreneurs mind set. He also warned me about the work force and how they will treat you. So far I’ve been treated like shit and I don’t like it.
Now I know everyone can’t just go into business because you are still going to need people to work for you and if everyone was a businessman/woman than you wouldn’t have a workforce. It gets a little more complex than that little flimsy example I gave but the point is, College is BS and money is a lie.
So in my English 101 class, we had to read a selection from a book written by Anne Lamott. Or at least I think it was from her book.
The selection my teacher had us read was entitled Shitty First Drafts. It pretty much was about how when any writer sits down to work on a project they have to write a shitty first draft. I really took that to heart when I read what Ms. Lamott wrote. It made me think about my blog and how all of my post are shitty first drafts. Even this one is a shitty first draft because I have no intention of going back and fixing any errors…unless I catch them skimming over it.
I always tell myself that I am a good writer but after the first 2 weeks of English I have come to the conclusion that I am not. There is just so much that I don’t know. I’m not sure if its from the 2 years of not taking English since high school or me just not actually knowing. I do see myself gradually growing and becoming a better writer. Hell, I like to do it, just not to the extent of dedicated writers who walk around with a journal 24/7.
Whether my writing is good or bad I still enjoy getting here on my blog and making post that people will occasionally like and comment. I really appreciate the people who like my post and even share their thoughts. It pleases me to know that I have a small crowd out there that is watching.
Well, I guess I’ll go back to being an internet junky. I may do a little homework.
ps. I went over this post and fixed some grammatical errors and re-worded a lot of stuff. My teacher is rubbing off on me.
I know I know, I’ve been off and on here lately. So what? Its not like anyone reads my blog anyway.
So I know what you’re thinking, the title sounds great for a poem that has every line starting with “I Will” I’m sorry to tell you this but you are wrong. I’m going to take a little time out of my night to stop and explain what I will do for the rest of this year.
To make this sound professional I will start it off like this…
- I WILL complete all course assignments in my college classes.
A hard task that is but it is something that I will be doing. For the few of you that do not know, I failed my first semester of college. Everyone was disappointed in me. My girlfriend scolded me, my cousin cursed, I got all sorts of words thrown at me. The only thoughts that came to my head was, “Why didn’t I just drop my failing classes”, and “Why didn’t I try harder?”. I can go on and try to redeem myself and give a bullshit excuse but it won’t cut it. I didn’t apply myself like I should have and just didn’t make time for it. I really wish I would have listened to my family and my encouraging girlfriend to focus on school and get it done. So now I have to start clean with just a few credits under my belt and try my best to get these classes out of the way so I can make room for the next set.
- I WILL become a better person.
I’m not crazy or anything, I just want to become a better person to society. I feel like society needs someone who can step up in any weather and lead the way. My first goal in to becoming a better person is to do community service. My girlfriend has gone on and on about me not doing community service and how it will make a difference in my life and as well in others. So I’m going to do it, I just have to go online and search up some community service events that are going on in my city. I WILL APPLY MYSELF.
- I WILL start a small business.
I am sooo TIRED of selfish people at work! I’m not going to go into the full story online but I need to make money on the side so I can work less at UPS. People at work just piss me off. There is so much drama and all people care about is their money. So MY GOAL for the remaining of this year is to start a small window cleaning business. I have experience in it and my “Swirl” is on point! I just feel like I don’t need to depend on someone else to make money. My long term goal in life is to work for myself because being a slave to someone else’s company isn’t what I want to be. Even if its something I enjoy doing I still don’t want someone to have the power to fire me or demote me when they want to and how they want to. I already hate that feeling at UPS. Its ridiculous.
Well folks, that’s all I will do. I plan on skateboarding a whole lot and getting a video together!
ps. It was around this time of the year when I started my blog so HAPPY ANNIVERSARY EXPLODING ROCK!
You need to make a major change in your life. Do you make it all at once, cold turkey style, or incrementally?
At this stage in my life I need to make a major change but procrastination has hit me hard and has not let me do anything. My lack of responsibility is hurting me and the only way I can get out of this comfort zone I’m in is to just go forward and do it. They way I’m taking on this this major change is in small increments. I should really just do it all at once and force myself to do it but the way my head is programmed right now I just can’t do it. Its really hard to get changed in my life, if someone close passed away I would be stricken and would be in a depression for quite sometime. If I work hard now and try to over come procrastination and my lack of change than things that come in life wouldn’t effect me in a terrible way.
Right now in the position that I am in, the major change that I need to do is get my school stuff figured out so I can go back to school. I failed 2 classes and I’m on financial hold until I can fix my fafsa and some other stuff. At first I was like oh crap, let me get this stuff out of the way, but now I’m just slacking and sitting on my ass doing nothing but blogging about life adventures. It sucks bad, i really need to get up and do something…
(I’m going to stop here because writing about major change that I need to do right now is not helping. I need to get up, get out and do something)
So for the “people” who keep up with this on going blog, you should know that yes I graduated from High School back in May. I am now attending JCTC (Jefferson Community Technical College). The degree i chose is Graphic Design.
Its been a bitch trying to get into school, I’ve been procrastinating and putting things off…now that I got most of it out of the way the college life isn’t that bad. I’ve met some cool people and plus now that I am working nights at UPS (I meant to blog about that) its been pretty chill. I thought the “Real World” would be a complicated mess…and it has but it wasn’t like what I was expecting.
I mean its hard but I just push through each day like nothing is happening. I still skate, Still got a girlfriend and have been able to do what I want and how I like it. This is just the beginning, I still got a ways to go to really see what this is all about. For now, this is the start of my long and drawn out Story.