I recently just got down reading my post about how I just graduated from high school and it brought back good memories and the day I graduated. I never thought that I would actually miss it but deep down in the darkest place of my heart I do. This isn’t something that you can just push away because it isn’t going any way. Its a story that will be stuck with me for life.
With that being said I would like to announce that I am starting a series called Life Stories. I know I said in my The Begining of The End post that I was going to start a series called The Real World Series but Life Stories sounds way cooler and I think it would fit my life much better. WE all know that this life is the real world but we all don’t seem to know or see the life stories that go on it.
This series will include big moments in my life, my high school graduation is the first to the series but there will be more big events that come my way. I know there will be my big breaks and downfalls but its life and that’s what happens. Whether its happiness or misery it will all be here for you to read. I just want to share it all, the trials and tribulations, the broken bones and the broken skateboards.
Its all coming, See ya!
So for the “people” who keep up with this on going blog, you should know that yes I graduated from High School back in May. I am now attending JCTC (Jefferson Community Technical College). The degree i chose is Graphic Design.
Its been a bitch trying to get into school, I’ve been procrastinating and putting things off…now that I got most of it out of the way the college life isn’t that bad. I’ve met some cool people and plus now that I am working nights at UPS (I meant to blog about that) its been pretty chill. I thought the “Real World” would be a complicated mess…and it has but it wasn’t like what I was expecting.
I mean its hard but I just push through each day like nothing is happening. I still skate, Still got a girlfriend and have been able to do what I want and how I like it. This is just the beginning, I still got a ways to go to really see what this is all about. For now, this is the start of my long and drawn out Story.
Well its official, I am now a High school graduate of Southern High School. The class of 2012 is the 61’st class to graduate under our new principle Mr. Hibbert. Its been a long 4 years…but a long 12, 13 if ya’ throw in head start. It feels like I have been in school forever. Basically my whole life, but now…now I’m a free man about to do my thing in life.
I still remember the first day of school when my dad walked me in and showed me to the teachers. I started to cry when he walked away. I still remember the first day of middle school, my neighbor “Yari” and I walked in and approached our asshole of a math teacher asking if this is the right team. I also still remember the first day of high school, my homie Dakotah and I rolled up in Southern amazed by all of the other students trying to make our way through the crowded halls. It feels like this all happened yesterday but now look at me, all grown and out of school.
I’m still stunned that I even got to this point just for the simple fact that I cruised my whole senior year just sitting in class writing random crap and get good grades. I had a slight feeling I wasn’t gonna make it but I pulled through last minute and got my sh*t together. Now here I am with a diploma with my name on it and a cap and gown hanging up in my room. What a wonderful feeling that is.
Now that I am done with my free education, its time to move on up to my post secondary education and get my move on in life. I’m still going to skate, draw, and do all the other crap I enjoy doing in life and hope for the best.
To end this post I would like to quote a favorite hip-hop artist of mine.
“They say that life is what you make it, so what you been creating on yo’ free time” – Big K.R.I.T.
This ends my May Post…Check out what I got going on in the next few weeks. I’m gonna get a “Real World” series going. Holla!
PS. Shout out the Class of 2012!
WTF, what am I supposed to do? Sit around and just play this game, been done with that a year ago but still it seems to be a plague, updates about these other fools, f*** em if you want em to, leave me out the situation and you’ll see what I’m gon’ do, only just a summer ago I admitted to the facts but now I’m stuck in a vortex that has me under attack, left alone by the people close enough under pressure, just a few steps till I’m at the door but I won’t lift the lever…. to be continued – Jamil
So latley a lot has been going through my head that I seemed to have killed away and have thrown away in my virtual memory trash can. All yesterday I was trippen so bad, later on when I got to the crib and did a little snoopin everything dropped and like I said, it just fatally died. It wasnt really nothing, I just made it seem like a big deal in my head and from a few influences around me, I had this little vision going on that kept replaying over and over agin in my head until I couldn’t take it anymore. What did I do you may ask? Nothing of course becasue once it came to that point I pushed it out of sight and thought about what really mattered and why I am in the predicament I am in today.
People call me a lot of stuff but as Mr. Gary always said to the crazy white girl on the bus “I got thick skin, nothing really gets through to me”. I never really care about what the other low down, got no life, broke as a joke, still living with mama idiots got to say because I keep on reasurring my self that I will be better then them and do bigger and better things then work at Rally’s for the rest of my life in the drive thru lane. They do make me mad at times to the point of me thinking about bashing their hallow heads into a brick wall until it breaks. I haven’t gotten to that point yet so don’t push me.
Its times like that when I look around for a certain someone other then my buddies to go talk to and chill with. It sounds a bit better and a lot more normal. I see it as also companionship and trust, that person always being there for you no matter what.
Seeing me though, I may look like your average nerd wearing the small clothes and not talking to no one. Well you got me all fu** up. Even though you can be someone else but don’t show it dosent mean your that person which I want to be, but that problem that is lurking around the corner striking fear into me always comes to end my shot.
I’ve put lots of thought into it, I dug through all my drafts to pull this one out to finish up what I have been thinking. Something is different now becasue I found a new path of where I can meet up with em. Just by having a simple conversation about pop culture led me to the route which I plan on taking and utilizing from now on. Maybe there is still a chance for me….maybe. I got the rest of the year, time to take action I thought. Although it did make me happy to see the smiling face, at least that is what I in visioned but eh, its ok to dream right? I know I’m a confusing person who can talk as deep as Huey Freeman but I’m a person on a search with no map and no help but my self.
Its just me.
Whoa! Here we are once again. The month that gets cold in certain states and snow falls. Plus the fat guy in the red suit comes down your chimney and supposedly leaves you some presents. We all know its our parents. I’m not gonna lie to my kids about Santa, whats the point? I’d hate to be the parent who has to tell there kid at the age of 10 that there isn’t no Santa Claus like for real. I know there are some people out there who are with me. Telling yo kids a lie, this ain’t no little lie…this a BIG lie. Yo kid be sitting there crying for 3 hours about how there isn’t no Santa Claus, plus we in the age of “Technology is The Future” meaning yo kid who is 10 years old got a facebook. He/She all over facebook telling his/her friends there ain’t no Santa Claus. Guess who all the parents gonna look at for ruining there children’s happiness on Christmas Eve, yeah they gonna be looking at yo stupid ass for telling. “But we gotta tell our kids sooner or later”. Maybe if you didn’t tell them in the first place that there isn’t no Santa Claus and that we get the presents that make you piss your pants in the morning because of extreme amounts of joy! When I get some kids I’m gonna keep it real with them all the way. “Look thats a bear, when their little there all nice cute and cuddly, when they get older there vicious and deadly. They will maul you to death if they catch you in the forest by yo self”. I’m just gonna keep it real with them. “Boy you better not touch that spider, you touch it its gonna bite you and kill you”. Simple as that, he gets scared and stays away. see how easy that was? Y’all wanna be all oh I’m not gonna tell my baby that. WELL I AM! I know this is sort but this was just on my mind. You people have a nice day, I’m finna go sip on my egg nogg and go watch my skate videos. Comment!
I still find it kind of hard to believe that I’m almost out of school. It seems like it was just yesterday that I was in head start. now I am 2 years away from leaving high school and entering the real world I just don’t know what to do with my self. Its kind of weird, exciting and a bit nervous because I’m only 16 and haven’t figured out what to do with my life yet. My family is trying there hardest to get me to think but just like any old teenager I rebel against them and don’t listen to a word that they got to say. I have been thinking for the longest though on what to do in my life. I have many goals that I would like to peruse but I haven’t taken the initial plan to go and do it. Well except for one but I don’t feel like going into to much detail on that matter. Don’t be trippen and think that its some weird job that I have in plan but no, when everything falls into plan you’ll see. I guess, thats if you pay any attention to what I post up for these people to see.
In school though they do come to us a lot and talk to us about college and stuff but it seem to be over whelming and time consuming to sit down and pick a college and how your gonna pay to get in. I don’t really see the need for college. Its only for those people who want to work in a big office tower and get told what to do by this big fat man who site behind his desk all day eating doughnuts, or is that was police officers do? Well it dosent matter, its some stuck up back stabbing boss. Then on top of that your stuck in a cubical surrounded by more back stabbing employees who suck up to there boss and will do anything to annihilate you and get you fired. Sounds bad right? It is. My view on life is different from most peoples because I see things differently then others do. Its like someone is looking at an apple and when I walk up I see an orange. I think I gave a bad example, how about you come up with one and I keep talking.
Anyways it seem like I have so many ideas and opportunities at hand but don’t take any action. 2 years of high school and where have I gone, no where. Most teens my age got a job. I got a part time job with my dad. Low pay ain’t kickin it in my world.
As I go on and on I find it useless that I keep going about this problem and think I should stop here. Unless you can comment on this post and give me a heads up on what I should do, feel free. Until then, I’ll be waiting on that post.