So latley a lot has been going through my head that I seemed to have killed away and have thrown away in my virtual memory trash can. All yesterday I was trippen so bad, later on when I got to the crib and did a little snoopin everything dropped and like I said, it just fatally died. It wasnt really nothing, I just made it seem like a big deal in my head and from a few influences around me, I had this little vision going on that kept replaying over and over agin in my head until I couldn’t take it anymore. What did I do you may ask? Nothing of course becasue once it came to that point I pushed it out of sight and thought about what really mattered and why I am in the predicament I am in today.
People call me a lot of stuff but as Mr. Gary always said to the crazy white girl on the bus “I got thick skin, nothing really gets through to me”. I never really care about what the other low down, got no life, broke as a joke, still living with mama idiots got to say because I keep on reasurring my self that I will be better then them and do bigger and better things then work at Rally’s for the rest of my life in the drive thru lane. They do make me mad at times to the point of me thinking about bashing their hallow heads into a brick wall until it breaks. I haven’t gotten to that point yet so don’t push me.
Its times like that when I look around for a certain someone other then my buddies to go talk to and chill with. It sounds a bit better and a lot more normal. I see it as also companionship and trust, that person always being there for you no matter what.
Seeing me though, I may look like your average nerd wearing the small clothes and not talking to no one. Well you got me all fu** up. Even though you can be someone else but don’t show it dosent mean your that person which I want to be, but that problem that is lurking around the corner striking fear into me always comes to end my shot.
I’ve put lots of thought into it, I dug through all my drafts to pull this one out to finish up what I have been thinking. Something is different now becasue I found a new path of where I can meet up with em. Just by having a simple conversation about pop culture led me to the route which I plan on taking and utilizing from now on. Maybe there is still a chance for me….maybe. I got the rest of the year, time to take action I thought. Although it did make me happy to see the smiling face, at least that is what I in visioned but eh, its ok to dream right? I know I’m a confusing person who can talk as deep as Huey Freeman but I’m a person on a search with no map and no help but my self.
Its just me.
Whoa! Here we are once again. The month that gets cold in certain states and snow falls. Plus the fat guy in the red suit comes down your chimney and supposedly leaves you some presents. We all know its our parents. I’m not gonna lie to my kids about Santa, whats the point? I’d hate to be the parent who has to tell there kid at the age of 10 that there isn’t no Santa Claus like for real. I know there are some people out there who are with me. Telling yo kids a lie, this ain’t no little lie…this a BIG lie. Yo kid be sitting there crying for 3 hours about how there isn’t no Santa Claus, plus we in the age of “Technology is The Future” meaning yo kid who is 10 years old got a facebook. He/She all over facebook telling his/her friends there ain’t no Santa Claus. Guess who all the parents gonna look at for ruining there children’s happiness on Christmas Eve, yeah they gonna be looking at yo stupid ass for telling. “But we gotta tell our kids sooner or later”. Maybe if you didn’t tell them in the first place that there isn’t no Santa Claus and that we get the presents that make you piss your pants in the morning because of extreme amounts of joy! When I get some kids I’m gonna keep it real with them all the way. “Look thats a bear, when their little there all nice cute and cuddly, when they get older there vicious and deadly. They will maul you to death if they catch you in the forest by yo self”. I’m just gonna keep it real with them. “Boy you better not touch that spider, you touch it its gonna bite you and kill you”. Simple as that, he gets scared and stays away. see how easy that was? Y’all wanna be all oh I’m not gonna tell my baby that. WELL I AM! I know this is sort but this was just on my mind. You people have a nice day, I’m finna go sip on my egg nogg and go watch my skate videos. Comment!
As usual, everyone is up on facebook complaining about there life or something that has gone wrong in it. My question is, why must people share with the world that there up at 2 am crying about some relationship gone wrong. To tell you the truth I really don’t care. Yes, I know, I’m a cold hearted person. But there is no need for people to announce there divorce with there wife or husband. Do you actually think that half of your friends that you probably don’t even know care?!
See, it has come to the point that people have gone to far and are taking there social networking site a little to personal and want to share a lot of there personal information to everyone in the world. Announcing to the world about you taking a crap on the toilet is a little to far. What even more bad is when people bring there problems to the web site and have what I call “posting arguments”. Its when they go back and forth arguing through post, posting what they should be saying over the phone or in person. People on facebook do that a lot and I see it happen a lot and it gets on my nerves because I just happen to be friends with the two people arguing and I have to sit there and watch them fight. Its stupid, pointless and will go no where.
So right now it may seem like I am complaining about complaining but I’m trying to state a point. People shouldn’t go and hit up myspace or facebook to tell there personal life story to a bunch of people. OK some are close friends, but with teens now a days they’ll add just about anybody. Why do I know this? Because I used to do that. But for future reference, please stop posting up personal difficulties in your life. No one on there is going to help you but say a few word to calm you down. So chill out, OK?
If you wish to change the past then you are going to alter your future. Things that happen to you in life happen for a reason. Whether they are good or bad. Just think if you would have never went to the store that evening to pick up some milk, would you have ever met your wife? Exactly! Even if the situation is bad, good always finds its way through.
So if you have always had it implanted in your mind that you want to change the past then you should take it out because if you could change time and changed one little thing, then everything is going to be changed and you my not like it.
Another reason things happen in life that may seem bad is that you don’t repeat history. Why do you think we learn it? Its so that when it comes to a time similar to an event that happened in your past that you did not like you remember what you did wrong and do it right or what ever came your way that was bad, you avoided it. By that, you do not repeat the past and learn from your mistakes. So be glad of what you have here before you and that what happened in the past happened, for good or the bad.