Black Quota

So if you already couldn’t tell by how I formulate my post, I’m black. I consider myself black because well, I got a big afro and look black, but thats besides the point. Being brown in this world has its perks like scholarships and the ability to put words together poetically. There is also a downside to having dark skin though and we all know what that is; racism.

As I have stated many times before in other post I have made on this little webpage I call home, I work at UPS. I’ve referred to the place as under paid slaves and… well thats it (LOL). There have been times where I have really hated my job because of other employees or management, but now I feel like it has taken a turn for the worse.

So what can possibly go wrong inside of a facility that is easily be compared to high school? They want my to join the Dark Side of the force (Yes I know, this isn’t Star Wars but it sounded cool right?). Anyways, I’ve managed to show upper management good quality potential to become a supervisor, something I have mentioned before and now they are relentlessly attacking me to join them. Now I know you’re wondering, “Why are you trippen, you’re getting a promotion at work!.” Yes that is true but I REEEAAALLLYYY don’t want to take up on this off right now.

I’ve looked at this opportunity from every angle.

Angle Number 1. If I go through with everything and become a supervisor I will get better pay, go from laborious work to mental work, and get to go into a nice cool office after the sort and bullshit with the rest of the sups (supervisor for short).

Angle Number 2. With me leaving Posi 3, I am allowing everyone to move up one in seniority.

Angle Number 3. Daimont can be Erics new deice partner and the deice crew will have yet another black guy and white dude driving a big truck causing mayhem out on the ramps.

Angle Number 4. I’m not going to like being in management because damn near all of the supervisors are a bunch of weirdos and now I get shitted on more because I’m closer to the “TOP DOGS.”

Angle Number 5. The way I see things is that, once I become a sup, they’re going to be like “Hey welcome aboard, heres a bunch of problems, fix them.”

Angle Number 6. Management finally can get the best of both worlds, a black guy to reach the quota and one who is not dumb like that bald headed nigga Lavaskey.

Angle Number 7. Go back and read number 4.

Leaving you with that last angle, I don’t want to get any closer to management than I already am. Right now the only person I have to deal with is my part time sup, which they constantly change. The only time I ever see those old heads in the office is when a truck is getting demolished or one of the areas are acting like they don’t know what they’re doing. The less I can see my manager and full timer, the more happier I am. I mean, who really wants someone who has dominion over you there by them all the time?

Also going back to angle number 6, my management team at UPS is trying to reach the black quota. I know they are, its not like they can hide that shit from me. I know they know I’m not stupid. Every time I look in the office I literally see 3 black people. Its always been 3 or 4. Adding me to there team of conformed supervisors would make them look good because now they’re more “diverse.” I see nothing wrong with what they are doing but at the same time they’re being so persistent with getting me to join them.

What makes things worse is that I can’t argue with them because everything I throw at them these people have a counter argument. At this point I don’t know what to do. I thought about just going into a full on nigga mode on them but they would really tarnish my image. I have got to figure out something fast.

I do aspire to be a sup someday but right now I just DO not want to take up on the offer. I simply don’t want it. If I can make these old heads understand that then I’ll be a happy camper.

The struggles of being black.

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My Thoughts About School

Post secondary education is a way the government exploits families by telling them that if you go to school you can get a better job and get a piece of the American pie. What they don’t tell you is that its all lies and they just want you’re money. How sad right?

Did I mention that when you go to college you are just learning one thing (unless you double major) that prepares you for a job? A job where you work for someone and you are not the boss. See I told someone at work about this and they looked at me as if I was crazy and said that you need college to live a better life.

Well… yes and no. See I was fortunate enough to grow up in a household with a father that has an entrepreneurs mind set. He also warned me about the work force and how they will treat you. So far I’ve been treated like shit and I don’t like it.

Now I know everyone can’t just go into business because you are still going to need people to work for you and if everyone was a businessman/woman than you wouldn’t have a workforce. It gets a little more complex than that little flimsy example I gave but the point is, College is BS and money is a lie.

Four Corners

As I sit here in the middle of my room typing this, I feel the wholeness of this world surround me and engulf the pain and fear of life. Everyday is more of a challenge due to society’s stress upon my brain and my fathers persistent badgering of help with his company. I’m 20 years old with no aim in life. My only true passion is skateboarding and life has done all its can to slow down my progression.

In my current down time I’ve done nothing but mope around the house, stream social media sites and have taken little time towards my code academy account. I also got bad news from school. I failed a class. I owe those fuckers $432. Fucking jerk offs.

To add to my stress I’ve made it through my 3rd peek season at UPS. This year had to be the worse yet, with volume staggering over 2 million a night. Everything is taking a tole on me. My soul is tainted with happiness and anger, my positive mindset has been tarnished, my life goals have been put on hold.

I’ve started smoking black n milds to cope with the stress. Its a habit I picked up on my 20th birthday while floating in the clouds. I dearly regret it but fuck it, quicker way to leave earth right?

It makes me tear up just as little while I straddle my stuffed animal and sit in the middle of the floor. I just want to know why the world is so cold and why when I try I fail even more. I have higher hopes for the new hear but right now, I just want to sit here in the middle of my four corned room and sob a little over my failed attempt at life.

Maybe I’ll get it right next time…

I Will

I know I know, I’ve been off and on here lately. So what? Its not like anyone reads my blog anyway.

So I know what you’re thinking, the title sounds great for a poem that has every line starting with “I Will” I’m sorry to tell you this but you are wrong. I’m going to take a little time out of my night to stop and explain what I will do for the rest of this year.

To make this sound professional I will start it off like this…

  • I WILL complete all course assignments in my college classes.

A hard task that is but it is something that I will be doing. For the few of you that do not know, I failed my first semester of college. Everyone was disappointed in me. My girlfriend scolded me, my cousin cursed, I got all sorts of words thrown at me. The only thoughts that came to my head was, “Why didn’t I just drop my failing classes”, and “Why didn’t I try harder?”. I can go on and try to redeem myself and give a bullshit excuse but it won’t cut it. I didn’t apply myself like I should have and just didn’t make time for it. I really wish I would have listened to my family and my encouraging girlfriend to focus on school and get it done. So now I have to start clean with just a few credits under my belt and try my best to get these classes out of the way so I can make room for the next set.

  • I WILL become a better person.

I’m not crazy or anything, I just want to become a better person to society. I feel like society needs someone who can step up in any weather and lead the way. My first goal in to becoming a better person is to do community service. My girlfriend has gone on and on about me not doing community service and how it will make a difference in my life and as well in others. So I’m going to do it, I just have to go online and search up some community service events that are going on in my city. I WILL APPLY MYSELF.

  • I WILL start a small business.

I am sooo TIRED of selfish people at work! I’m not going to go into the full story online but I need to make money on the side so I can work less at UPS. People at work just piss me off. There is so much drama and all people care about is their money. So MY GOAL for the remaining of this year is to start a small window cleaning business. I have experience in it and my “Swirl” is on point! I just feel like I don’t need to depend on someone else to make money. My long term goal in life is to work for myself because being a slave to someone else’s company isn’t what I want to be. Even if its something I enjoy doing I still don’t want someone to have the power to fire me or demote me when they want to and how they want to. I already hate that feeling at UPS. Its ridiculous.

Well folks, that’s all I will do. I plan on skateboarding a whole lot and getting a video together!

ps. It was around this time of the year when I started my blog so HAPPY ANNIVERSARY EXPLODING ROCK!

I Got A Job

So I didn’t really think I was going to get it but I did. For 2 weeks now I’ve been working at UPS unloading trucks, which they call feeder. I don’t know why they call them feeders and why they don’t simply just say trailers but thats what I do. I had to go through so much crap though. I’d go into detail but its a bunch of bull, I’ll just start with orientation.

So first 2 days I had to sit in a class room and listen to a bunch of people talk. The first day I think 3 or maybe 4 people came in and starting talking about UPS and a whole lot of other crap that really didn’t interest me. I was mostly looking forward to working. The second day some hazmat guy cam in and talked to us and once again it was about stuff I really didn’t care for. I did pass my test with 100%. The end….

The week after I sat in a class room at the actual hub where this black guy named Ray Love talked to us some more about UPS and our jobs. Every day we would go out to where we were going to work and spend a few hours lifting boxes. Then come back and listen to Ray talk. Everyone goes by a first name basis thats why I keep saying Ray instead of Mr. Love. Ray was a odd fellow. He would have his white and black moments. haha

Last week I started working in my designated building. I had a quality trainer who would get on me for every little mistake I would make. She’s pretty cool, she raps. I heard her album and was like “EEE! This is dope” But after 4 days of dealing with her, on that Friday I got to work by myself. It was pretty simple and mello. I was in a truck by myself lifting boxes, what fun.

Now that its a new week I have been working by myself and liking the job a little. the people are nice and might I add, theres a few hot chicks yahmean? haha.

I’m not saying its fun but ehh, I’m getting paid and work for 4 hours. Some days I’ll work 2 hours. But hey! I got a job!

Oh if you wanna hear my Quality Trainers Album go to this link! => http://www.datpiff.com/Mary-Jayne-800-An-Ounce-mixtape.241480.html

No Mercy


So For the past 3 days I’ve been shacking the walls of my room playing T.I.’s new album “No Mercy” his seventh studio album. I’ve been waiting all year for it to come out and its finally here. At first it was going to be called “King Uncaged” but then he got pulled over, cops found weed and he got locked up, yadda yadda yadda. I’m tired of explaining what he did because my friend don’t ever stay informed. I think its just cus I’m a big T.I. Fan. But the The new album is awesome! My favorite song so far is “How Life Changed” I love the hook. He has some great songs on this album like “Poppin Bottles and Castle Walls” I be blasting it all night!!! Its crazy.

There is one thing that I am mad about though. So today I go on iTunes and see that “No Mercy” is the first album on the list of albums, I’m guessing its number one. So I go to it and I’m looking through the tracks, this is the deluxe edition which I got. I’m looking at it and I see all these extra songs like “I’m back and Yeah Ya Know“. The I saw my favorite song that was leaked out a few months before the album came out and thats “Pledge Allegiance To The Swag“. I got mad because I got the deluxe CD and I don’t got all them songs that they got. I just simply said that I was gonna go out and just get another CD, (LOL) But I don’t know. Maybe because its on iTunes. Now I hate iTunes. WTF! This is stupid, why couldn’t they just put the same songs on all of the CD’s and call it a day. It really don’t matter now, I’m hoping that he puts it on a mixtape. Over her talking about he ain’t gonna come out with anymore mixtapes, you know he lyin. He’s gonna come out with another mixtape. No Worries, but if you have not heard “No Mercy” then you need to go get the CD.

Check out http://trapmuzik.com/

Twitter Review

Twitter, the concept doesn’t bore me but excites me being the fact that I can sync it in with my facebook and annoy my friends with post coming at them back to back every two second. For those who don’t know Twitter is a service for friends, family, and co–workers to communicate and stay connected through the exchange of quick, frequent answers .

Twitter is a fun site, it lets you follow anyone who you want to keep updated with and they can follow you as well. Its not like your average social networking site. Its mostly based around through status updates and if you want to you can message people. That all you really do, no videos to watch but there is photo sharing,  just on other sites such as twitpic.com. Since its start, twitter has gone big and has over a million people tweeting there day, seems boring but it can get addicting after you first couple post and a few follows.  Thats what happened to me.

It not only good for communitcating with friends and meeting new people but for buisness. I learned that people some how make money off of twitter just by posting up stuff. Not sure how that works so don’t ask questions.

So what I believe I have done is what many call a review. I just talk about twitter and how it works so if you’ve been living under a rock ad haven’t heard about it or just haven’t made one, go make an account right now. Its the beginning of your tweet adventure.