In 2011 I wouldn’t have never thought that I would be where I am at today. Like back then I can really say that I had childish thoughts. I mean I was just in high school, I believe it was Junior year. I remember just looking off into the future dreaming of going AM for some skate team. I had it all planned out. But now as I look at everything I guess my heart wasn’t really where I wanted it to be. I really want this, I want to be able to skate any everywhere that I want and actually make a living from it. Maybe its my fear of hitting rails? I don’t know, I don’t mean to sound like a “diva” or anything.
Going back to the top, none of this seems to be real right now. I feel like I had other great plans and ideas. I literally got out of school and went into the world with no aim. I think I should have stuck with writing during the entire time. If I did that I would have gone way further than where I am right now with this. Its just so frustrating, my emotions run amidst a sea of dreadful and uncaring thoughts. I’m twisted in the head. I think thats my reasoning for smoking weed so much now. I have not other way of coping with my insanity. Its so bad, like I have a serious problem.
I can’t say that I will ever try to get this fixed but as far as I see right now? I won’t. I’m sorry for being such a waste to the world. But I regret saying that because this world means nothing to me if it choose’s to look down on me. Theres no need for the pity or the whiny ass “I’m sorrys” I don’t got time for that shit. Just leave me be dammit!
Anyways, thats me just ranting about life. Sorry for the depressing moment.
ps. You know I can’t leave you guys on a sad note. Keep up and stay humble and let the Universe work in your favor. Holla .
~ Keep it all smiles
I’ll be honest, I wasn’t too much of a fan of Bill Cosby’s stand up but Fat Albert and The Cosby Show was my shit!!! After the allegations about Cosby came out, we were all stunned. I honestly didn’t want to believe it but I forgot that he was a back man so their gonna throw bricks on top of him heavy. I just walked out of the living room after watching one of those CNN round table conversations and I noticed that they have charged him with Aggravated Assault.
Its kinda fucked up when you think about it. This man has a LEGACY! A large one at that and nobody will ever look passed that when the name Cosby is brought up now. Hell, if these “Allegations” are true, how in the FUCK did these females remember so much and why did they wait so long for? Was it some type of remorse? Did they not want to get him in trouble while he was still young and felt that it was better for him to serve his time in prison was an old man? Either way its all fuckery. (Sorry for the vulgar language).
It just upsets me thats all. They’re doing the same thing that they did to Michael Jackson. If its a conspiracy than thats why Michael is dead, he got off Scott free from those allegations. Cosby on the other hand, if convicted, he’ll be gone for a long time. Like I said, its just all pure fuckery.
ps. Let us not let the legacy of Bill Cosby die. We can’t let a bunch of females who claimed that they were raped by him ruin what he created. You got to separate the man from the art.
pss. Bill Cosby is out on bail right now but is indeed facing aggravated assault charges.
~ Keep it all smiles
As the title reads, take it how you would like. Haha, yeah so I’m pretty stoned right now but I wanted to get on here and talk you y’all a bit. “Oh so what do you want you fucking weed addict!” I’m first of all let’s clear the air a little bit. I am not a weed addict. I just smoke marijuana on a regular basis because it helps with my minor depression and the fact that I have a lousy out look on life.
I mean it isn’t that bad, I usually look at it is a type of self medication. For example, there is nothing wrong, I’m just high. That statement may sound a very abstract and out there, but don’t question it and just pretend. I mean hell, I know you do anyways because life isn’t what it seems. How so? Let’s take a book and open it. There’s a lot of pages isn’t it? Pages are paper, a common material that is used for a lot of stuff. Now, let’s take paper and put words on it. What have we done? We’ve gave it power!
It makes all sense but hey, I got to stop talking right now. My buddy Daimont is playing Hannibal Buress on his iPhone 4s. (He occasionally argues with Siri). So anyways, I’m going to go.
Ps. Smoke weed
~ Keep it all smiles
Have you ever rolled a joint and then tried to smoke it only to find out that it won’t light? Then you have to go through the painstaking process of unraveling your joint, grabbing your pipe, then packing a bowl. It screws everything up because now all of your plans that you have gone through and made are now being pushed back 5 minutes or so because you got to redo you weed mistake.
What makes it worse its that you’ll get sad, open your refrigerator in search of yogurt but there isn’t any so you settle for strawberry sherbert. You’re only satisfied for 20 minutes because you realize that people who spell the word in front of the word that in this sentence with a letter “S” are foreigners. It makes sense right? I know that I’m not the only one who thinks this.
To top it all off with the icing on the cake, you began to think about all the other junk food thats in the fridge but you’re afraid to eat them because a sick stomach in the morning is something you do not want to deal with. Its kind of like a hangover but your not sick because of the Remy. OH and besides this nigga Fetty Wap, who in the HELL ELSE drinks fucking Remy Martin? NOBODY that I know of. Now you can easily joke and say that my friends are broke but we all got jobs and pay bills, so take your “broke” jokes across the river with the rest of those damn hoosiers.
I could go on all day but doing that would just get those weirdos jerking off to the impractical thoughts that pierce an ovulating mind. Just think of all those wonderful thoughtful juices seeping from the clustered lines and squiggles that scatter across the human brain. Its a bit gut turning but to say the least, the beef was cold.
Oh before I go, can we all just come together the summer of 2016 and make a video that says “Fuck Donald Trump?” Like I can’t be the only one who wants to take a shit on this noggin and piss in his nostrils. Like for real, fuck that rich bastard who appeals to the ignorant poor people. Those same ignorant poor people who don’t have money to pay for health insurance but want Obama Care abolished. Its bullshit but lets not think about it as we walk through life accustomed to un-equal trade and value.
How ever this shit goes, I know to not enter the realm of mistakable primitives and unjust conspiracies.
ps. Fuck Samsung, they are forever copying Apple. I just see the new design leak for that damn Galaxy S7, its ugly. I read rumors that the iPhone 7 will not include a home button and incorporate the 3D touch as a button but on the screen. Just watch though, Samsung will see what revolutionary creation Apple has implemented and then will copy it. Its fucking pitiful
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Today was the day you’re phone service got cut off. I went to school a whole week dreaming and fantasizing. Then Friday came and I got a text message. My reaction was stupid. Your intentions were ignorant. But I’ve been over it.
I’m just appalled by the fact that you sent a text message. Do you know what they shows of you as a human being? A pathetic piece of shit. Like seriously, you are a pathetic piece of shit. I never was depressed. I never shed a tear. I literally went into deep thought trying to figure out what the hell happened.
But its okay, I new we weren’t meant for each other. I knew from the snaps and the text. I knew from the few phone calls and the awkward outings.
Why does this bother me though? Because you didn’t have the guts to look me in the eyes and make that final connection. That final connection that would cut us off from one another.
This is why I sent those text a month after so I could get you to purposely hate me. I didn’t want you to like me nor do I want you to now. Not to mention you wanted to friend zone me.
So fuck you.
ps. That screen shot of that “Love Note” was delusional thinking. I never felt that way. NEVER. im being serious.
We’re living in a world that consist of human beings that don’t know anything outside of their boundaries.
They insist we live in fear and give our money to the rich. They want us to go to school and be stupid at the same time.
They want us to continue poisoning ourselves until we die and then piss on our graves because its whats best for us. I hate this world for it.
I really do.
I usually don’t tell people where I am academically in college since I fucked around to much. I’m only just a freshmen. Considered that is. I’ve been in school for 4 years and haven’t gotten anywhere. I feel like a turd but at the same time, where I am in school doesn’t matter to me. Finishing college isn’t even a goal. I’m not even sure why I’m still in the shit. I feel like I’m wasting my time trying to do math equations in a remedial class. The system sucks. I honestly want to give a personal fuck you to college because it’s just been a waste of my time.
Oh of course people love school. Those same people will look at me and call me a failure and tell me that I’m going to be stuck at UPS for the rest of my life. But how? Because I haven’t finished college to get my degree so I can go work for someone? That’s not why I’m living. I didn’t come into this world so I can become a slave to someone else’s company. My father raised me to never work for somebody else but to work for myself. I want to offer the service, not be the person doing the work.
I know what your thinking. “You need a college degree!” Yeah go to Steve Jobs’ grave and tell him Apple would’ve been better if he finished college. Tell Bill Gates that he shouldn’t have started Microsoft without finishing school.
Don’t get me wrong, college is a great outlet to meet people and to help build long lasting relationships. But in the end, joining a fraternity or sorority to get the connect for a good job down the road ain’t me. I know, everyone doesn’t join those types of organizations but school has done nothing but waste my time. You don’t need something people want you to have. See that key word? Want.
Let that sink in.