Tag: love

• the letter x

  Today was the day you’re phone service got cut off. I went to school a whole week dreaming and fantasizing. Then Friday came and I got a text message. My reaction was stupid. Your intentions were ignorant. But I’ve been over it.

   

  I’m just appalled by the fact that you sent a text message. Do you know what they shows of you as a human being? A pathetic piece of shit. Like seriously, you are a pathetic piece of shit. I never was depressed. I never shed a tear. I literally went into deep thought trying to figure out what the hell happened.

   

  But its okay, I new we weren’t meant for each other. I knew from the snaps and the text. I knew from the few phone calls and the awkward outings.

   

  Why does this bother me though? Because you didn’t have the guts to look me in the eyes and make that final connection. That final connection that would cut us off from one another.

   

  This is why I sent those text a month after so I could get you to purposely hate me. I didn’t want you to like me nor do I want you to now. Not to mention you wanted to friend zone me.

   

  So fuck you.

   

  ps. That screen shot of that “Love Note” was delusional thinking. I never felt that way. NEVER. im being serious.

  November 30, 2015

  friendzone, girlfriends, hate, love, relationships

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• The Leaves are Still Hanging

  I love fall.

  No not for pumpkin spice lattes because I prefer Colt 45 and Tops rolling papers, but because of the change in weather. Don’t get me wrong, I love summer to the fullest, long days of nice sunlight and skateboarding. The one thing I love about living in Louisville, KY is the fact that we experience seasons. Many other people do as well but if you live out on Long Beach snow is a myth.

  Any ways, entering Fall is always exciting. Its like opening a door to a road that allows you to see Halloween, Thanksgiving, and Christmas. Not to mention that the weather slowly begins to cool down and the leaves change colors. Its all a sight to see and a wonderful experience. I feel like the reality of everything around me changed as well. Its like my surroundings are accommodating to the astronomical presence of Fall. Yeah I know, flowers die off and birds fly south but those are common things. Its hard for me to really explain my feelings towards this but to keep it simple and short, Fall is awesome.

  September 23, 2015

  chirstmas, colt 45, fall, Halloween, holidays, love, pumpkin spice lattes, pumpkins, seasons, thanksgiving

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• Damn…

  UPDATE!!! I deleted the original post so I can change it to this.

  FUCK MY EX. 

  Thats it. lol

  December 5, 2014

  love, relationships, shes out of my life, single

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• Can I Say Hello Jane?

  Its funny, don’t even know you but I think about you
  You’re on my mind, all the time I’ve even dreamed about you
  Could be desire or my lust but it don’t make a difference
  Thought about an old lady but your beauty is my witness
  Can’t even figure it out, what am I doing dawg!
  All I do is look and pretend the room is full of smog
  So I don’t think you’re looking, or even try to catch a glimpse
  Everything inside my head is fantasy, never real as shit
  I gotta stop stalling but I say its too late
  I sometimes catch a glance but get scared and just over think
  I need to stop acting like a kid and just spit it out
  But life ain’t what it seems and the walls begin to pile around…

  July 22, 2014

  dispair, jane doe, love, poem, poetry

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• Happy New Years!

  I personally think that this year is going to be a great year! They say that life is what you make it so this year I’m going to lay my foot down and pave my path out myself instead of someone else doing it for me. Last year had its ups and downs but this  year looks bright for me and my friends. We’re all getting paid, we all have good goals and right now we are all achieving them. It feels great knowing that you’re whole crew is doing well. We may not have stepped into the new year with a huge bang but we don’t need no overwhelming party to make the next 365 days memorable ones. My head is still foggy from earlier so I’ll make a much more clearer post about this new start of life here on earth later today if I remember to do so. haha!

  Have fun everyone and make this your year as well!

  Peace. Love. Skate (PLS)

  Heart. Honor. Respect (HiiiPower)

  January 1, 2014

  2014, 365, family, food, friends, hiiipower, love, new years, nye, peace, skateboarding

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• Touche

  Never in my life have I ever won

  3rd Place don’t count so its said and done

  I’m over looked and my actions will never shine

  I do my best but even close friends say it wasn’t a try

  To myself I’m such a failure and damn I’ll never make it

  I try to explain what I’m tryna do but y’all just over think it

  I got ideas and found a homie who said he’ll stick to it

  Now to add more people along is whats left to it

  Lets take this over to another place

  I do a lot more but never rewarded is the case

  I see them other folk talking loud and doing this and that

  How we supposed to be on the same page when you always looking back?

  Never knew it was okay to be a hypocrite, people do it all the time why not just go and add to it

  Can’t talk to so and so and never go to lil buddies house

  Assumptions made but never knew that would lead to a turn about

  So don’t be fooled you jealous dudes know how to play the fool

  Keep in mind that I’m the coldest cat, Saber tooth

  Step in the booth with the blaze cus this is hot fire

  A wicked mind with sick thoughts this is live wire

  I’m never winning, put my gun down every day

  A small victory at stake, touche

  February 6, 2013

  concealed, endeavors, grateful, gun down, hate, hot fire, love, mindful, people, poetry, role, saber tooth, sick, sick thoughts, small victory, thoughts, title, touche, wicked mind, winner

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• Illuminate

  Forever getting pushed aside

  I Never knew why

  But when I get back take the mac squeezed back and laid suckas on they side

  No lie, confident, maybe conceited with the thoughts of me dying inside

  Getting this together, good or bad weather, still I’m keeping it fly

  If you wanna do or die, end up on the ride, to the yard, grave yard you will lye

  Despicable thoughts, feeling I fought, taking down Goliath and the big Hulk

  So raw, no red meat just flesh to fresh air that’ll make it thaw

  In my head I draw, making these words go together like puzzle pieces, theres like 100 dawg

  But it really doesn’t matter, I’m keeping things tight like leather on a braud who got 5 dogs

  Taking them for a walk, stuck up white folk, in the hood where they hire people to cut the lawn

  I‘ve witnessed it all, never like this do I get upset about dumb shit

  But I gotta give it to ya straight, taken them curves like the gays mybad but ayeee

  That’s their prerogative, go ahead let them do what they do

  If you live in my world, people will die even if they jackin for some food

  Yessir I’m crazy, but it don’t matter call myself a fuckin genius

  I‘m not sorry that I curse, what can be worse, a nigga pull triggers sending people to a plot in a hearse?!

  We can take it right there, buts its unfair, I’m gonna stop now before feelings get hurt!

  – Milly

  January 29, 2013

  death, flaw, flesh, hate, illuminate, journey, life, love

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• Astray

  I’m trying to find the light but all the shades is down and sh**

  My thoughts are on fire but my mind is just a ship.

  Floating out in sea and drifts away when wind hits

  Countless lives lost for god forsaken crippling bits

  I’m confused on situations that require money and trust

  But lust for even more that has my head pounding and all that stuff

  Crying to my self just so I can see it wash it away

  Its stays like a storm pouring down tons of rain

  I wish I can be better but there’s nothing left to give

  If I slit my wrist then friends will pop bottles, pour and piss

  Tough enough for small endeavors, weak just to fall astray

  Can’t hold on tight cus the tears of pain have soaked my hands with shame

  My dark thoughts shadow down the beams of warm light, I’ve never seen God but I hope that God is nice

  I’ll never say him or her or prefer God as an it, beliefs in mythical practice have made people jump ship

  The large waves of death come and take over all, as humans fall we seek answers to life and all

  January 29, 2013

  death, god, hate, humans, life, love, lust, mythical, pain, poem, religion, spirituality, story, tears, trust

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• Ode to Love Park

  Every since I started skateboarding you have been the dream location I have wished to skate. My role models, Stevie Williams and Josh Kalis landed the most spectacular tricks and threw down the greatest lines that I can still envision till this day. When the city of Philadelphia officially banned skaters from skating you I was saddened and my dreams of going to Philly were crushed.

  Your multiple ledges, smooth and black were mesmerizing and beautiful. LOVE hosted dozens who were content merely to skate you. Just the scene was enough for me to hop out of my seat and travel there so I can be apart of the big city and the lights that surrounded you. There really isn’t much for me to say, but in times of death people go astray, but the ones who stayed to fight for your stay still have the great memories of skating you everyday.

  RIP Love Park

  January 28, 2013

  city of philadelphia, DPchallenge, dream location, dreams, josh kalis, love, love park, park, philadelphia, philly, skateboarding, spectacular tricks, stevie williams

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• Life Stories Pt. 1

  I recently just got down reading my post about how I just graduated from high school and it brought back good memories and the day I graduated. I never thought that I would actually miss it but deep down in the darkest place of my heart I do. This isn’t something that you can just push away because it isn’t going any way. Its a story that will be stuck with me for life.

  With that being said I would like to announce that I am starting a series called Life Stories. I know I said in my The Begining of The End post that I was going to start a series called The Real World Series but Life Stories sounds way cooler and I think it would fit my life much better. WE all know that this life is the real world but we all don’t seem to know or see the life stories that go on it.

  This series will include big moments in my life, my high school graduation is the first to the series but there will be more big events that come my way. I know there will be my big breaks and downfalls but its life and that’s what happens. Whether its happiness or misery it will all be here for you to read. I just want to share it all, the trials and tribulations, the broken bones and the broken skateboards.

  Its all coming, See ya!

  January 28, 2013

  broken bones, darkest place, downfalls, hate, high school graduation, life, life stories, love, misery, people, real, real world, skateboards, stories, world

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